your tears wiped off mine...

~3:30 PM

i used to think dat i hav no frens. no true frens. now i realised dat i was blinded by my stupidity. dere are lots of ppl arnd me hu care. hu are concerned. hu are true frens. hu made me happi. i am actually surrounded by treasures :))

the treasures i dug up

yao lu -- midori

the octopus hu always uses the indecisive libras as excuses when i ask her questions! you are the guai kia hu always influence me to do my work n study for tests. n also not to pon jap. i am really glad dat you are always arnd to gimme a push when i start slackin. thanks so much!! you are also the one hu lend ur ear to my troubles n neva complain abt havin to listen to my never-endin grumbles. you tried ur best to help me. although ur advice are often not of much use. i still appreciate them lots =) yupps. dats abt all. do put in ur best effort n be a good sc n guide, i am always dere when you need me (:

camelia -- cam

the smarty pants hu thinks dat she noes everythin! only your higher chi lower than us can. all the other subjects got so high marks lo. you freak. lols. i still prefer to freak you. blearghx. my first impression of you was dat you are a really wise person. but you hav proven it to be untrue so far =P but really lo, your way of speakin n dealin with things make me think dat you are a wise grown-up. thanks for offerin advice to my troubles. they are much more useful than yao lu's ones :) n you also helped me with lots of my work. but you are sometimes really blur too. ppl talkin abt when british returned to singapore you start talkin abt post-war probs or communists. hahas. yupps. n you are foreva so enthu to hear gossips. i think nobody can tell dat you are someone hu loves gossips too frm your face. also, ur strict face will freak me out sometimes. i dunno when you really angry n when not lo. when you are jus abit pissed you will show dat black face le. always make me break out in cold sweat -_-"' but i hav learnt some ways of countering them le ;)

jochebed -- bed

the girl hu always ask ppl to cheer up n goes into depression herself! you are a smart person kaes. not in the least stupid. if you were stupid you wldnt try n get hold of my notes cos only smart ppl noe dat my notes are the most useful ;) thanks for trustin me enough to tell me abt your troubles. hope dat you will cheer up n return to the old smiley bedd!! yupps. n you really veri kpo. always wan me to tell you stuff when i told you they are long stories le. hahas. dats definitely not concern kaes. its called kpo. also, you were always dere to cheer me up when i am not happi. you made me feel alot betta. you rawk!!

these are the main ppl i wanna thank for bein such gd frens n helpin me out durin the times when i was really depressed. jus wanna add, you all added loads of happiness to my life. lurve you ppl lots :) muacks!!

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Wednesday, May 18, 2005
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~3:00 PM

true frens r hard-to-find treasures;
its a blessin to dose hu found dem.

true frens are ppl hu truly care;
hu will giv up their happiness;
jus to see your smilin face;
but yet will not say u are rite;
when you are not.

true frens appear to be beside u;
but they r really behind u silently;
waitin to cushion u if you ever fall.

but you will neva get to see dem;
cos dey are like the stars;
which are foreva dere to guide us;
but can only be seen at nite;
when we are in our darkest times.

if you hav found ur true fren; do cherish him or her.
if you hav not; its not becos u dun hav one;
its jus dat u hav not noticed;
dat he/she is behind you.

co-pi iirig h-tte d

`rainb0w---+ h uii w e n nn

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~2:00 PM

finished history n home econs exams!! thank god dhs only hav these two exams for mid-yr. cos jus the two subjects can make me faint. maybe cos take dem on the same dae ba. anyway, in the mornin dat andy kept remarkin on me wastin computer ink for typin out notes. blearghx. i see my marks more impt than computer ink can. okies, maybe its nort for the marks. its for the flip-phone i'll be gettin for good results. hehes.

the history paper was okie larrs. jus dat multipe choice abit not too sure, unlike last yr. den the definitions of terms were chao easy. budden source based n structured essay questions were abit of rush. at least it was betta than last yr. last yr history exam structured essay last part i didnt hav time to do at all. its like sayin bye-bye to 7 marks lo. cos dis yr i really put in effort to memorise. so i stoppin halfway thru source based n went to structured essay when i saw dat only had one hour left. i didnt want to waste all the stuff i memorised. den in the end completed all except a small part of structured essay question cos i didnt noe how to do. den when i finally thought of it left half a min. hais. at least its much betta than last yr.

home econs paper. quite easy too. compared to last yr. but maybe cos dis yr i put in more effort larrs. anyway, i was quite confident de lo. den at bus stop yao lu asked me the answer to this question, "There are two grps of food dat cause coronary heart disease. The first one is food high in cholesterol like egg yolk, etc. Name the other food grp n list two examples of such food". i was like mus be coronary heart disease? gosh. i missed out dat part. blearghx. i put food high in salt lo. n i know the correct answer too. shits. after i knew dat i lost some marks le den i realised i had some questions dun really know. n now i am worried abt failin the exam. :(

tmr still hav jap speech. haven even started. wonder how i did for my jap CA3. hope the teacher didnt giv out the paper yesterdae. cos i ponded lesson.

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~9:50 AM

ytd had a realli big 'fight' with mr gan. those in 2d noe wat happened. i shall nt elaborate. i noe i was veri rude to do dat seein dat hes a teacher. but i was realli angry with him kaes. i mean, hes not dat bad as a teacher but still. to show agreement to dat kinda behaviour is ridiculous. maybe he jus wanted to make a joke outta it. but he shld consider my feelings also rites. heard dat in the end mdm lim knew abt the changin of seats frm other teachers den started to blame mr gan for it. its nort realli his fault but he shld hav did sth abt it also. instead of doin wat he did.

me feelin alot betta nowdaes. less stressed up. i realised dat there are lotsa stuff arnd me to make me smile :) lurve all my frens arnd me hu always stand beside me no matter wat happened. thanks alot!! yupps. n when mr gan passed arnd dat piece of overall results for CA which ish the result dat will appear on the report book, i realised dat my results were nort dat bad after all. i havent been failin any tests actually. science gort second highest in class. home econs test gort highest. history ish either highest or second highest. etc. i was jus irritated dat my maths kept deprovin while alot of ppl are findin the tests too simple n gettin full marks for all of dem. i didnt fail any maths tests afterall. but i still think dat its a big waste dat i dun study for maths when its easy to score full marks. i shall work hard for maths frm now on =)

i jus printed out the application form for vip n tip. but i am still decidin whether to fill in anots. hais. hav to go study for next wed's history n home econs major exams le. byes.

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Saturday, May 14, 2005
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~11:00 AM

came back from lvl camp yesterdae. n i miss it so much already!! i even dreamt abt it kaes. the instructors were chao friendly n nice. lurve them lots =) i was in aquos, grp 1 n fahmy n crispy were our grp's instructors ^^

day 1

our section went for high elements first. dere were three activities for dat altogether but i onli went for wooden playpen cos nort enough time. it was quite okaes. had to climb up the staplets den walk on the rope in midair with onli the playpen n ropes to balance. but still veri fun, nort scary de cos gort the rope tying onto us =) in the past, i would nort dare to try the high elements n might have find excuses to "escape".. but durin the camp i realli wanted to try all of the high elements. i think it was st john which built up my courage bahs. anyways, dats why i was sho pissed off when they had to move on to other activities when it was my turn to try the wooden bridge in the air... hehes. after dat it was lunch. the food realli surprised us. we didnt expect camp food to be sho nice lohs. dere was even honeydew =) after lunch we had to pitch our tents. den it was low elements. the first one veri fun. dere was sth bouncy like a rope abt 15cm above the ground. den one person from each side had to move to the other side. dere were ropes from above to hold on to balance. den two supporters, one in front n one behind will help to push the person back if hes abt to fall but cannot hold on to dat person. dat was one of my fav activity cos dat thing realli veri bouncy. i lurve the shakin part!! the other low elements we tried were the low wall n the shaking ladder. after dat we went for dinner. had watermelon after dat. after dinner we washed up n went for night walk. before dat the instructors made the atmosphere so tense lohs. they said dat those who talked will go thru night walk alone. it was realli scary kaes. the whole journey to the night walk area was silent. den when we realli go into the walk in fours, it wasnt scary at all. veri short walk, arnd 2 mins liddat. but veri dark. den the ppl who scared us nort scary de. some of the boys said dat when they walked in, one of the teachers' hp rang. lols.

day 2

we went for raft construction after breakfast. it was quite successful. the raft worked quite well n we proved fahmy wrong =) but our shoes were filled with sand after dat. den we had lunch n amazing race. the amazing race quite borin. n it rained sho we didnt get to try river crossing. our section qutie lucky cos the river we had to cross was disgustingly dirty. n somemore dat day we gort to sleep in the chalets. section c n d had to sleep in tents dat day. durin the rain we learnt lotsa new cheers n did lots of dances. den we had dinner in the chalets n prepared for our campfire item. the campfire rawked!! our section did pretty well for the performance. den they played some touching music for our evaluation. glenpa said some realli touchin stuff n i was realli glad i was enthu throughout the entire camp n participated actively. the instructors sprayed some snow-like stuff n dere were even bubbles floatin arnd the campfire site. we cheered n danced lots. the chicken dance was realli fun =) den we went to bathe in the chalets n slept...

day 3

dere was prize presentation. miss dunman charlotte!! she was chao kewt lohs. kept jumpin arnd. lols. den we made the instructors sing while we waited for the buses to arrive. shai sang an jing n fahmy sang qing fei de yi. grp 1 kept cheerin "fahmy, ni hao shuai!" n he was so embarassed lohs. hehes. chao kewt de. den grp 1 n 2 did the dance we did for the campfire again. thank god grp 1 was the last to leave the place.. if nort i will realli cry if i miss the instructors singin lohs. when we walked to the bus, may fong was like "i wan to see mai shuai ge". den when we went up the bus, fahmy was dere waitin for us n i told may fong "ur shuai ge over dere". lols. we lurve fahmy lots. jus like my mei lurves jason. thank goodness he didnt do the tuo diao in the end dat day, if nort she will faint. hehes. argh.

i miss the camp. i miss the cheers. i miss fahmy!! we gort his email add le but he ish in thailand now sure nort online ones mahs. hais. the camp like changed my life liddat. alot of ppl said dat they missed their electronic devices n they wanna go home. but i didnt realli mind abt not havin my fav tv anymore. n i didnt look forward to goin home. it was the first time i felt dat way.

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Saturday, May 07, 2005
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