your tears wiped off mine...

~4:32 PM

somebody who is going to the superstar concert today, PUH-LEASE help me record it!!

especially the part where weijian impersonate the judges!

i will love the kind soul to bits ((:

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Friday, September 30, 2005
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~3:50 PM

took japanese paper yesterday. i thought i could trust on my not bad memory so i only studied the day before. well, i was proven wrong. i shall not harp on it since it's already over. may i get a passing grade.

after the disastrous jap exam, i was prepared to work hard for the other subjects. i planned to study for english at night. but i forgot abt it and slept immediately after the serial drama ended. i only remembered in the morning. i guessed i don't have a good memory after all. thank goodness it's english. if it was geography, i would be in a coffin by now.

anyway, among the 5 topics given for the essay, i chose the argumentative one -- are rich children happier than the children from poorer families -- at first. halfway through, i realised that there wasn't enough inspiration for that topic and thus, i hurried to write a new one -- the pains of growing up --. this topic suits me better as i have enough experience for it.

one of my points for the essay was, as one grows up, he will face friendship problems which sometimes cause the friendship to end. please don't ever let this happen to you. stop being stubborn, you should reflect on what have you done to deserve this treatment. i bet a million dollars you will regret it when you have to leave each other.

the above paragraph is dedicated to YOU.

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~3:12 PM

i miss hohweijian :(

.weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian
.weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian
.weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian
.weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian
.weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian
.weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian
.weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian
.weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian
.weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian
.weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian
.weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian
.weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian
.weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian
.weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian

i cant bear to listen to your songs, they always make me tear.
hope that you are not having a difficult time in army.. JIAYOU!!

irritating advertisements.
stop popping out of nowhere and claim that i won whatever prize.

did you think that i am that stupid to believe it?
or did you picture a 3-year-old surfing the net?

i do not welcome things which think that i am stupid to appear on my computer screen okie.
so get lost, stop bothering me. my mood is bad enough already, thank you.

BUT. if you happen to find out that i have won tickets to the superstar concert, you are welcome to pop out anytime.
rest assured that i will click on the window without hesitation (:

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Tuesday, September 27, 2005
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~5:47 PM

today has go to be the unluckiest day i have ever had. first i missed three buses and now my long long post has disappeared. geez. i am not going to bother retyping the post.

hais. i am such a failure in everything. studies, friendship, family, st john, everything. i am so gonna fail my maths and science :( i just lost some friends too. and i wasnt very nice to my mother when she was ill. i am starting to fear jnco camp too. AND i miss derrick weijian!! sobs. i am listening to his songs now and my tears are abt to fall soon.. i would feel so much better if i was going to their concert this friday but everybody's mugging for the exams and nobody would go with me :(

somebody just kill me please.

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Monday, September 26, 2005
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~9:05 AM

just visited zuoqi's and jiawen's blogs. and i was reminded that they are leaving for IPs next year. and, now i remember 2d'o5 is going to split up next year.

when i first came to dunman high, i was so upset abt having to leave my primary sch friends that i had to go for counselling. i once told the counsellor that i do not want to start any close friendships. i dont want to have to experience the heart-breaking pain of parting. and i did just that. i shut myself up totally for the next few months. i hoped that i would become a loner in the class. someone who will not be noticed even when gone missing.

however, i did not manage to keep to the promise. by the end of last year, i had a few close friends. but i told myself that it was okay since there was still quite a high chance of landing into the same class as them in sec 3, because there was only the few of them. it was unlike the case in 6k, where i loved the whole class.

well. as usual, time flies. and it is already the second last month 2d can joke and laugh in the same classroom. compared to a year ago, i, being the one without self-control, have already made friends with the whole class. i experienced the company of our wonderful people, the wonderful class spirit, the wonderful fun we had as a class. and i am not someone with a heart made of ice. my liking for 2d has grown tremendously.

what will happen to us next year? will the scattered us still be able to come as one? will we still remember the wonderful times we had? will we act as if we are strangers when we meet each other along the corridors in dunman high? will we still be able to recognise each other if we are in the same university?

tian1 xia4 wu2 bu4 san4 zhi1 yan2 xi2. thus, i will not cry again.

but i must say this. 2d, wo ai ni.

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Saturday, September 24, 2005
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~3:32 PM

mid-autumn festival celebration in school yesterday was fun!! activities in school became more interesting since mr sng joined. he is the best principal ever ((:

after lessons ended yesterday, i took out the materials prepared the night before and started making a lantern for the competition. each class was supposed to submit two lanterns and i asked the SPCs to each lead a group and make the lanterns but apparantly, none of them did it. june gave me a reason i still dont quite understand. as for clarence, he did came out with something, but it was just a paper cylinder without both top and bottom. i thought he would continue working on it after school but guess what. he went to play LAN. geez. well, thank goodness i sort of anticipated something similar would happen so yao lu and myself prepared materials to make the lanterns for the competition. thus, camelia and yao lu worked on the materials yao lu brought and i independently did my lantern. weili and zuoqi were nice to continue working on the paper cylinder clarence made :) yupps, so we submitted 3 lanterns in the end.

at 2 o'clock, junting, meiyun, yao lu, camelia and i attended the mooncake making workshop. it was pretty fun overall, and we made 14 nice nice large mooncakes (: after mooncake making, camelia, yao lu and i played the "dao zhuang ju", the game which you have to read the words in the other order, with biyu, sherlyn and jocelyn. sadly, i just couldnt get the rhythm right and had to be coached over and over again. i managed to understand better with you ppl's patience, thanks loads :))

at 5.30pm, the mid-autumn festival celebration officially started. 2d assembled in the bball court with our red class-tees and battery-operated cartoon-shaped lanterns because we misinterpreted the teacher's instructions. we were told not to bring lanterns with candles, thus we brought battery-operated lanterns. however, from being the only class which brought battery-operated lanterns and the teachers' surprised looks, i presume that they meant for us to bring the traditional lanterns without putting the candles. but it doesnt matter since it made our class stand out from the rest (:

thanks to the PSG, we had tidbits and pomelos. camelia and i went to the hostel canteen and took our mooncakes out from the refrigerator. everyone had trouble finishing the food, but it was a fun process afterall. and mr low, our vice principal took photos for cam, tong, yao lu and me. then it was riddles time!! each class was given three same worksheets to pass around and we were suppoesd to compile it on one of the paper and hand in to the student councillor in charge. thanks to the geniuses in class, we filled up the whole piece of paper :)

after that, jiawen, kathleen, yao lu, cam and i went for the treasure hunt. it was really a night walk and student councillors tried to scare us. they were only successful with the sec 1s actually. we had to run around looking for places in the school with a clue. the last place was found with the help of quan yi and clarence. in the end, we ran back to the canteen and completed the jigsaw puzzle of a photo. 1d, 2d and 3d took photos together and we cheered (: then we went back to the bball court to join the rest of the class.

when we went back, prizes for lantern-making were given out. our class manage got second and third!! weili and zuoqi's lantern got third and mine got second! yao lu was quite sad but cheered up in the end :) after that, the celebration ended but 2d were still on a high mode. we did cheers and wooshes, took plenty of photos, distributed the food we won, etc. it was really a great great night!

although i got my rahes (feng mo) again yesterday, my mood wasnt affected because of the fun. but after i reached home, i found that they had spread all over my body felt really disgusted. went to see the doctor just now, and realised that this was a skin allergy. the doctor suggested that it was my own sweat i was allergic to, seeing that i only got rashes when i went out. sigh. how am i supposed to go through the jnco camp if i was allergic to my own sweat?

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Saturday, September 17, 2005
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~5:41 PM

didnt post recently cos i wanted to keep the last two posts at the top for a while, those are the cheem-est i can go with my standard of english language. hahas. few ppl think of me as smart cos the profound side of me only comes out when i am:

1. mean or critical

being nice almost all the time, i dont get mean and start criticising ppl with words that they can hardly understand. and those unlucky ones who heard the criticisms of mine would never admit that i am smart. well, the world is fair. when you are referred as nice, you will never get labelled profound.
p.s. just in case some of you dont get what i mean, the conclusion of the entire paragraph above is: i am nice :))

2. clear-minded

i am always biased and never willing to face reality, like in the case of project superstar. i was crazy over weijian (i still am) and could not accept the fact that weilian won him, thats why i insisted that it was unfair. after processing it through my mind over some time, i got over it and admitted that weilian deserved to win. well, the sad thing is that i am also biased most of the time and would never bother to look at things in other perspectives. this is another reason why the profound side of me gets hidden.

yupps. thats all for this post. you have the permission from me to feel that this is lame cos this is just something i crapped out of boredom. hope you enjoyed my crap ((:

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Thursday, September 08, 2005
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~4:24 PM

the photos of the project superstar finals have been on the frontpage of almost all the newspapers lately. there have been discussions or rather objections about the final winner all around. this post will be regarding my own opinions and feelings of the contestants.

back to the time when there were only 3 contestants left in both the male and female category. it was either weijian, junyang or weilian out. teenagers like us obviously hope that the last name mentioned gets eliminated. when weijian turned out to be the one instead, i blamed it on weilian only and not junyang cos although i was a fan of weijian, i knew that junyang had the best voice and would be deserving of the superstar champion. then, once again, weilian's fans proved most supporting when junyang lost despite the advantage of the higher marks. another group of fans started to push the blame on weilian.

as for the female category, i did not really listen to their singing carefully and thus would have preferred kelly to xinhui since kelly was a singaporean. however, on the finals of the female category, i found xinhui's singing most touching and realised that she is another sincere contestant who gives her utmost best efforts as can be seen from the tremendous improvement of her singing since the start. thus i gave her 5 votes. when it turned out that kelly won the fight, i did not have any hard feelings as kelly was also a good choice cos both her voice and character are great. it was a pity for xinhui. she should have tried to capture her audience's attention earlier and also speak appropriately in front of the camera.

yupps. and on to the finals. i expected weilian to win despite knowing that kelly sings better. the reason being i know that weilian has got fans who will do everything to let him win. moreover, kelly's fans would prefer her to sign the contract with universal. thus, they would just give her their support by cheering for her. well, it was the first time that my prediction came true. weilian won.

after processing everything through my mind, i have this to say. people should stop insulting weilian or groan about the results. one reason being no matter what you do, weilian is still the winner. nothing will be changed and hurting weilian does not achieve anything, nor benefit anyone. also, this competition is totally fair. the competition is not about singing skills, but about support from fans. weilian has proved to have more supporting fans. yupps. and you cant deny that they are not all sympathy votes. who in the world will have that much sympathy as to vote for him until they go broke? people are touched by his voice. by his courage to go on competing despite his visual disability. it is true that weilian sang badly during the finals, but in the past competitions, he did pretty well too. and his fans choose to believe that he will do better and thus vote for him.

yupps. i think that this result is quite a happy ending. kelly getting the contract with universal music, the company that is better in many's eyes. weilian seeing a new hope, not having to sing on the streets again. weilian's fans being happy that the voice that touched them has won and kelly's fans will still get to hear her voice through her album. most importantly, singapore has proved herself to be fair and not biased against disabled or handicapped people. this tells the world that as long as you have the talent, you will have a chance to succeed in singapore :)) also, this also proves that singaporeans not only look at the appearance and "packaging" to determine their superstar, they also think that a good voice is important ((:

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Saturday, September 03, 2005
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~3:49 PM

since you feel that i dont deserve to know nor understand what in the world is going on, i will stop bothering you.

i guess it was my own fault for thinking that i have found a friend whom i can trust and who think likewise. i overestimated myself. i am nothing but someone who can be made use of. my feelings are not worth considering. i am just a puppet in your eyes.

in the beginning, when you started to change your attitude towards me, blowing sometimes hot and sometimes cold, i thought i did something wrong. then i realised that this is what you always do. it was the ignorant me who thought that i knew you. there are patient and kind friends by your side who do not take offence when you give them the cold shoulder, and will be ready to help you when you finally think that they deserve your attention. but sorry, i am not one who can tolerate this behaviour. if that bad habit of yours only occurs once in a while, i will not take it to heart. however, in your case, it is getting too serious. how do you expect ppl, being a true friend, to open their hearts to you and share whatever is in their minds with you when they cant predict the treatment you will give them the next minute?

human beings are not complicated, it is the way you see them that is comlicated.

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