huiwen(:

2006-02-05T06:32:00.000+08:00

this is a super special post!

1. 100th post!

2. last post on this blog!

here's my new blog:

http://thuiwen.blogspot.com

cya there!

2006-01-20T16:45:00.000+08:00

totally malu-ed today!! this was what happened. during physics, i realised that i had taken eunice's worksheet by mistake on wednesday. i returned it to her and found out that mine was missing.

so i asked yaolu whether she had it since i was sitting with her in the laboratory on wednesday.

you must be thinking that the gigantic speech bubble in the picture is to accomodate the many words in my speech. ohwells. you are only partially right. the size of the bubble also signifies the loudness of my voice.

before i knew what happened, the whole class was laughing. so i turned my head to the front and realised mr hong staring at me. it was only seconds later that i realised what was exactly happening. i had talked at a volume equivalent to the teacher's voice plus at that point of time the class was silent. so it was like my voice sounded throughout the whole class! ohman. terribly MALU!! i said "sorry" and covered my face in embarrassment after that. geez.

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yup. school has already started for three weeks already, yet i've only described the teachers in my class and not my classmates. well, fret not because here it is!

first it would be eunice of course since she sits beside me (: both of us were unwilling to sit with each other at first because she wanted to sit with jolene and me with yaolu. but now it's all fine! we became closer these few days, and no doubt the credit goes to gossips! haha. gossips bond girls. hm. and she is a really nice and sweet person, not at all like what rumours make her out to be. so people, know her better before you make comments okay! yup. and she also slacked through her maths lessons last year so we are in the same situation! we shall work hard together (:

next comes kailin. i already know her from taking bus 2 last year but it's quite different this year with her in the same class. first thing i have to say is THANKU so much kailin! without your help with maths i would die! LOVEU! yup. we have agreed to study together on tuesdays since we live so near each other. she teach me maths and i teach her hcl. as for science we shall discuss together since we are both so 'good' at it xD

then it would be junwei (sitting behind me) and guppy (sitting behind eunice). i have decided to describe them together since they are ever so similar. both extremely CRAPPY of course. talktalktalk and lamelamelame. both have got long stretchy legs which will kick our chairs too, and both are super pro in maths! so me and eunice are lucky to have two tutors behind (:

when asked, junwei never fails to first complain about how easy the questions are. then he will just dododo and show us his working without bothering to explain. so here guppy comes in to explain junwei's working to us and tada! me and eunice understood one more maths question!

hm. junwei, yaolu and me sometimes exchange japanese speeches -- mostly scoldings --. then when junwei found out that we gonna quit japanese as third language today, he went, "then next time i scold you all in jap, you all won't understand already.."

NOTE:

the typed-out form of what junwei said might have made you misunderstand that he meant:

"MUAHAHAHA! i can scold you anything i want the next time and you shall be left dumbfounded!"

BUT

he said that in abit sad tone. plus with that poorlittlelonelyboy look, this is what he really meant (subjected to my interpretation):

"huh.. quit already ah.. then there will be no more having fun playing silly stuff together while waiting for the third lang bus ): we also can't squabble using jap anymore in class and leave the rest busy asking us for translations.."

so me and yaolu assured him that the latter can still be achieved since:

1) the japanese teacher won't teach him how to scold people

and

2) nobody uses cheem grammar when they scold people. since we already know the full basics of japanese language, we can still communicate (:

that's all for this post.

2006-01-19T23:52:00.000+08:00

hihi (:

don't bother about the previous post because everything's fine now. ohwells. unhappiness between parent-and-child ends fast, especially with me as the child.

weirdly, i have been quarrelling with yaolu these few days but they always start in the early morning and end after recess. then we will go home together happily again (: then start the next early morning. hoho. but she loses out more because she has gossips she can't wait to tell me! fine. i guess that applies to me.

hm. big news. yaolu and i are quitting japanese lessons. such a pity after finishing half of the syllabus eh? we are afraid that we can't catch up with school work you see. but dhp lessons have proved to be pretty okay so far. ohwells. since we can get back a refund for the third language bus service, it's alright la.

yup. and i'm not catching up fast enough for maths. sigh. how i regret sleeping through my maths lessons last year! sec 2 students, you can sleep through all other lessons except maths okay! i shall put in more effort to make up for last year (:

history and moot parliament programme rawk totally! partly because it's taught by mr chiang ky i think. i have always been interested in politics and ideologies. and we have a history project based on ideologies! yayness! the sad thing is that we only have a weekend to do it. but yaolu, jinghuan, meiyun and me shall do our best (:

the three sciences have been okay so far too. i think i have benefited the most from chemistry. ms ng is a great teacher! i understand her teaching fast. ohwells. who doesn't? for biology, we haven't really learnt anything new yet so we shall see. physics have been pretty dry as i expected, but at least i do understand what mr hong is talking about.

higher chinese okay too. but i feel weird not learning new vocab from the text. it feels as if.. i'm not learning anything. haha. i guess my chinese foundation is strong enough to take the new teaching style. must still work hard though!

yup. that pretty much sums up the lessons.

2006-01-16T22:51:00.000+08:00

i never blamed you for not being able to play a part in educating me, nor did i take it to heart that i don't have a tuition teacher to make my studying easier. but why did you have to say that my results are only slightly better than average? why do you have the impression that my achievements didn't require effort when i worked so hard for them? fine. i don't study as hard as my aunts, nor do i revise my work. but i studied really hard for the end-of-year exams okay. it's a 270 degree change compared to my primary school lifestyle, where i hardly touched the books. can't you see the drastic change in me? why do you take my results for granted?

fine. i didn't get the scholarship because i didn't work hard enough. so i shall be condemned for it?

i lost count of how many times you made me cry.

2006-01-16T02:20:00.000+08:00

although i've gotten my new labtop for quite some time already, this is the first time i'm using it to blog! i went to bugis with my mum after routine training on saturday to shop for the wireless broadband router and printer cum scanner cum photocopier. and i've just installed everything myself! so proud of me (:

the classroom deco is 98% done already. we still have a crucial part to do but the deadline is over. hope that we can still win without it!

i'm put in charge of the class blog. hope that i can cope do it well!

2006-01-10T16:35:00.000+08:00

see, clara and meigui are good friends okay. most importantly, they both rawk!

why must meigui go out?! she's supposed to have both the support of tjc and cchms students! BOO.

2006-01-09T23:56:00.000+08:00

ohman. ohman. ohman. the results of campus superstar just came out. and CLARA got into the next round!! *sigh of relief* i voted 10 times, 5 from me plus 5 from yaolu. thankgod!

but i like meigui alot too.. boo. why can't some other sickening contestants get out? MEIGUI, JIAYOU!

for the males, the result was quite obvious already after they sang. no comments. just wanna say that weijian sang piano much better than M2.

2006-01-09T21:25:00.000+08:00

first day of formal lessons!

today results of the sap scholarship were released. ohwells. within my expectations la, flopped the interview what else to expect. plus they gave 8 less students than they promised. if i say i aint sad i would be lying. mummy must be sad to have a daughter not good enough to ease her burden. failure me.

congrats to all who got it though! i will still be doing bilingual studies and try to excel in it too despite having less advantages.

yup. and we finally got to met our teachers today!

first was ms ng for chemistry. she gave me a hardworking impression from her introduction. hm. we shall see. but she was a bit nervous and thus stammered, should relax more, we won't eat her up what.

then was an lao shi for hcl. she stepped in and talkedtalkedtalked abt her name and its meaning. spent 5 mins i think. then we were told that no more tian xie han zi, tian xie ci yu and zao ju for exams! great (: then an lao shi asked people to go up and talk about themselves and an item they picked. i was not chosen, thank goodness. i was pretty sad i didn't get mr kiw for hcl teacher, but i guess this an lao shi not bad too (:

next was maths. ms low, our form teacher, came in and wanted to rearrange our seats. but some people insisted that they won't change and ms low can't handle them. we had pccg after recess so it was ms low again. this time she die die must change so we changed seats. poor me and yaolu were separated. i'm now sitting with eunice and she with jolene ong. eunice even cried.

then physics. eunice and jolene wanted to sit together so we changed. the teacher was mr hong. 3b calls him mr hong ping guo. don't really have much comments abt him cos we were asked to go down for the scholarship results during his lesson.

last lesson history! ohman. mr chiang rawks! he has zero noise tolerance level which i appreciate. plus he is super passionate about the subject and teaches beyond the text. most importantly, we students would be able to learn everything without bias-ness because he's not afraid to teach (: and mr chiang's voice+drama makes lessons interesting! i'm so glad i chose history. er. mr chiang said he being a eccentric person don't want people to greet him, neither when he comes in, nor when he goes out. i guess all who loves the arts are like that, because i'm one of them!

2006-01-08T17:19:00.000+08:00

first week of school flied past greatly with no lessons! i beamed twice daily, before and after school, from 3.1.06 to 6.1.06, when i saw pupils of other schools holding their additional maths textbooks in their hands, feeling glad that dunman high arranged a week of fun-filled activities to start our new year instead of making us dread school with stressful lessons.

on the first day of school, we were briefed on our activities for the week and also some new school rules. several rules have been relaxed, eg. we can now bring sling bags and wear sports shoes to school. ankle socks are also now allowed as long as it's 1 cm above our shoes. although i didn't see the need to change these rules, i'm proud that dhs has a committee who's willing to cater to the students' wishes as long as we can handle it well (: however, they implemented a new rule which i plus 90% if not all of the rest are unhappy about. we are now not allowed to wear our pe t-shirt with skirt/pants to school even if we have pe lesson on that day. we have to go through the trouble of bringing our pe attire to school to change and after pe, we still have to change back to school uniform! true, they have explained the need of the rule, being that some students (boys) stink the classrooms after pe lessons with their sweat and they see changing out of our pe t-shirt as a solution to that. it's considered a problem of hygiene. and to save us too much hassle, our twice-a-week pe lessons have been put together, we are to have pe lessons once a week now. i wanted to submit a petition with the students' signatures immediately after the rule was announced but thought that it was quite inconsiderate since we have not even tried it out yet. thus, i'm gonna bear with it for a month and see if i can stand it.

second day of school was orientation. uniformed group members stayed in the hall the whole day to show the sec 1s around our booths. it was quite okay, i think our footdrill video plus activation should have impressed them. haha. but we missed out on the painting of our classroom! there are four competitions to let us bond with our class - namely extreme makeover (for the classroom), class-tee design, class noticeboard design and class blog. we were given 5-litre white paint from the school and we can choose another two colours. all paintbrushes, rollers, etc. are provided! gosh. dunman high rawks! last year i had to carry 5-litre paint to school myself okay.

third day of school was amazing race for sec 3s! another activity planned by the school! another name for it is DHS XPLORE. each class was divided into 3 groups for the activity. my group had meiyun, chunying, daphne, jinghuan, liujia, mingwei, rebecca, faith and me (: our two facilitators were yanwen and rebeccaboon. we had a starter game to decide which group goes first. starter game was to cut out words from the chinese newspaper they provided to form the phrases given. the groups who finished first get to go first. we went to tanjong pagar railway station first. task was to fill up a form and find out the times of the train. next station was ikea. task was to get a pencil they give. another station was rjc old campus at mount sinai. had scavenger hunt and some games. ohman. that old and creepy place is where we are gonna move next year! *shivers* another station was boon lay. had to find students from NTU. didn't do the task though. then was toa payoh community library. we were to have to 2-min performance fo an audience of 7 or more. there was a group of rjc students there coincidentally so the nice souls agreed to be our audience. then we went to the padang. needed to find some historical places. last station we went to was youthpark at orchard. had to write words with our butts. lol. then we chionged back to school because time was running out! had a debrief with the facilitators then prize presentation. our group got a merit award - 4th among 29 groups! threecheers! we got a special DHS XPLORE keychain each (: then was happiness hearts time. that day was really great. got to mix well with some of my new classmates. we ran around together and laughedlaughedlaughed.

went home with grace and junwen after school. they tried black magic and orange magic on me. then there was the follow-what-i-do. it was damn funny. i couldn't get the correct way then junwen said that she would do it really obvious. and well - it was REALLY obvious. i laughed until my stomach hurt loh. then there was the bangbangbang - who died? and the how-many-meh-meh-jumped-over-the-fence. i shall not explain the games, if you wanna know, i will play it with you and let you guess the correct ways. but they are really lame, so don't bash me up when you know the answers!

fourth day of school was painting day. we painted and painted. a group of us helped to design the class-tee and come up with our slogan. we are now:

bright baby batt3. [wired together; positively charged]

nice right?! 3b. battery -> batt3. get it? i thought of it!! haha.

i already like 3b loads, feel that we will bond really fast (:

mr sng gave us a presentation and told us of our 50th anniversary celebrations. there will be dunmanian dolls, a set consisting of a male and female. there is also a 3d-model of our campus. and of course loads of celebrations!

i'm sure 2oo6 will be a great year to look forward to!

2006-01-01T00:27:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

have been pretty depressed after the interview with advisors. i even cried a little on the way home. i spent time thinking and self-reflecting.. was i really not good enough? they all said they could see i put in much effort. so what else could i have done? it was just the not speaking up enough part wasn't it?

ohwells. i made myself watch a horror movie just to feel less bothered. after watching the cds with the photos our squad had together, i felt much better with the thought that i still had my squad.

yupp. i'm proud to say that after searching my own conscience, i'm sure i have no regrets or whatsoever of the camp. i put in my best and i became a better person after the camp (: the only thing that could have been better would be me being in another group. no, it's not the members of my group. i love all my squadmates, especially the ones whom i had gone through the camp with. i just think that i could improve more if i didn't have advisors thinking that wearing a dark blue rubber band when i couldn't find my black one is considered a lack of discipline. sigh.

so, back to the new year part. a year has passed without us realising it! i haven't even started on my holiday homework. bleargh. a new year requires a new start, how i wish i can throw away my homework and tell the teacher that old homework ought to be in the garbage! hm. i have cut my hair and pierced my ears just for the new year! my hair looks horrible now and it was painful piercing my ears, but it's worth sacrificing for the new image (: i wanted to design a new blogskin for the new year but there was a lack of time so i shall have it for chinese new year! look out for it!

and here's my new year resolutions:

- show my loved ones i love them!

yes, i shall shower my family, friends and squadmates with presents! to let them know that there is me willing to go broke for them (:

- no more depressing!

i shall just do what i think is right and stay happy knowing that i won't regret my actions (: there is nothing i can do when it comes to separation though.. but that's still 2 years away!

- complete my homework on time!

i know i've no right to say this seeing that i have not started on my holiday homework. mommy, i promise i'll work hard!

- put in my best effort for everything!

it gives me satisfaction plus happiness when i put in my best, just like for the camp! so this it shall be for everything i do (:

i thought i would have a million resolutions but i guess these are the only ones i strongly feel about.

2005-12-25T01:19:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS PEOPLE!!

i feel so energised and full of joy plus happiness now! thanks to my junior!

my dear junior tzu hsiang told me that she thinks christmas is the time to spread joy and letting our loved ones know that they are loved. upon hearing that, i went around wishing people who are online a merry christmas! and of course, i got a greeting back from almost everyone (:

being a buddhist, i'd never celebrated christmas before. as in we don't have a christmas tree at home and we don't exchange presents. till now then i realise that we can just celebrate christmas by wishing each other a merry xmas and putting a smile on everyone's faces! no, not just for christmas! we should give our loved ones a hug everyday!

hope that you all are enlightened! go show your love now (:

2005-12-24T01:06:00.000+08:00

rules of the game:

1. post 5 weird/random stuff about yourself
2. at the end of the post, list 5 pple whom u want to do the quiz
3. next, leave a comment "you are tagged" in their blog and ask them to read your blog for rules

fact #o1

i do self-reflection when i shower, resulting in an hour's wastage of water.

fact #o2

i fantasize myself as the female lead of a romance drama to get to sleep plus have sweet dreams.

fact #o3

i pout without realising it.

fact #o4

i have not touched my holiday homework.

fact #o5

i love shopping for presents.

i don't have specific targets for this game.

so if you think this is interesting, feel free to do it (x

2005-12-24T00:01:00.000+08:00

back from class chalet! it was from 20th to 22nd december but i only went on 21st december because i slept for 24 hours after breaking camp on the 19th. so sorry!

nothing special happened during the chalet - no sadness no nothing. but it was fun and we enjoyed it as a class (: we played asshole taidi at night. ohwells. it's basically taidi, just that the loser is the asshole. plus for the next game the asshole will give two best cards to the winner of the previous game. it's like the asshole will forever be stuck at the bottom loh. hm. and i learnt more about mahjong plus bridge!

went to watch king kong after chalet. was boring at first but really touching at the end.

here are some stuff i didn't blog about:

1. my third uncle bought me a labtop!

2. my house was repainted! my room is now pink (:

2005-12-21T09:39:00.000+08:00

ohman. ohman. ohman. our squad has completed the 30th Junior NCO Training Camp!

all the tough trainings did not go to waste as we graduated from camp as ONE with complete fulfilment of our camp motto OUR BEST FOR ALL. the fear we had before the camp was transformed into satisfaction and unity (:

we had activation every single day of the camp, with starting times varying from 4.30 am to 10.00 pm. we were to get into action at the very mention of the codeword DIRTYBOMB. we had to get the casualties evacuated from the disaster area in the shortest time possible and for the first activation, sir yuanwang said that the seniors thought that we would take 3 hours but we only took around half the time! moreover, we took less time for every subsequent activation! incredible for the smallest squad in the corps with only 5 ambulances (boys)!

there was once when i ran to the fourth storey and down for 10 times during activation, sometimes to scout and others to evacuate. it was damn tiring. and both sides of my hips are bruised badly because every time we run with the stretcher, the stretcher will bang at the hips. ohwells. at least we completed it!

another activity worth mentioning was the route march! a simpler term would be quick walk for 9 km! 9 km sounds so impossible but we did it! with never-stopping thunderous cheers! towards the end sir junyang led us around the park and he said that he only parades the BEST. a praise from sir junyang is like a bolt from the blue! and what's more he said the BEST!! wow wow wow.

our finale activity was the endurance test. this was the only one which made me feel like dying. the stretcher made a serious bruise on my shoulder and i can still feel as if the stretcher is there. i cried while cheering okie. but after we got back to school, the std 3s sprayed water at us as if we were some great people, it felt really wonderful to have completed a task so tough!

we were scolded badly and had defaulters' parade for the first two nights but after that, we had praises. sir huawei said that it was the first time he saw so few people fall out during jnco! and we are only a squad so small!

i shall not elaborate about any other activities since it must be self-experienced before one can understand it. i can only say that i'm glad i did not give up and i would have regretted for the rest of my lives if i missed the camp!

we are now JUNIOR NCOs!!

love our camp commandant sir junyang. love our camp sergeant major qiaoping. love our team advisors. love our camp personnel. love our wonderful std 3s.

LOVE std2SQUADo5!

OURBESTFORALL.

2005-12-12T16:16:00.000+08:00

friends out there, don't worry about me!

i'm not suffering from depression, just disappointment. although disappointment never heals, at least i'll be free from suicidal thoughts (x

after some thought, i decided that it's really unbecoming to be lagging in my posts. so, i'll now post about past important events. no more holiday happenings after that.

gift from nice simphoni who came back from melaka

youthinc. flag draft

youthinc. flag

my nametag

jnco course days

on day 1, after coming out from changing into full uniform, i was stunned by shunjie's "you are grp i/c today". it was sir cheehoe's idea. i bet he knew that i was hopeless with flag drill.. geez. anyway, i thought i was doomed, but turned out that i enjoyed it (:

for flag raising, i was really nervous and flopped the flag drill. "lucky" thing was that the squad was sort of squished and the flag knocked into tiffany in front and biqi at back. so the seniors didn't realise i was not handling the flag correctly. sorry to tiffany and biqi!!

also, sir weiquan caught me twice and i was "reprimanded" for mishandling the flag. but i didn't mind because after that, i'm perfect at flag drill (x so throughout the day, i ran around with the flag. the gutless me didn't dare to touch the flag in the past because i was afraid of doing flag drill wrongly. now? i love the flag!

yupp. both days were filled with lectures. lecturers include: mam siewchin, sgt major qiaoping, mam serene, mam shenglian, sir bengyu, sir weilong, sir cheehoe, sir yuanwang, sir huawei. i think that's all. i liked sir bengyu's lecture most, followed by mam serene's and sir weilong's. the others made me want to doze off, except sgt major qiaoping's one of course. fierceness!

sir weilong is super sexist. he says "gentlemen and ladies".

mm. we were pumped countless times for everything. poor tiffany and huaxin pumped for calling sgt major qiaoping "mam". seriously, who in the world can adapt so quickly? we have been calling sgt major qiaoping "mam" since we joined st john!

yupp. and i was commander for second day's flag lowering. flopped again because of my disgusting drill. wanting had to sign extra for letting the brigade flag touch the ground ):

hm. the two days were horrible to almost everyone but i liked them. i wonder why. i guess i'm sadistic for enjoying scoldings. but i really felt satisfaction for having learnt so much those days, be it theory or discipline or drills. those days made me feel prepared for jnco camp too. and i started to like sgt major qiaoping only after she became our camp sgt major. fine, i know i'm crazy.

experienced loads of first-times on jnco course day 1 -- but that one was special to me.

went for midnight movie -harry potter- after jnco course day 1 and had to polish boots after i got home. so i slept for only 3 hours!

japanese language proficiency test

it was multiple choice, quite okay except for the listening section. passable!

sap scholarship interview

eew. my goosebumps are rising at the thought of that. it was horrendous. i wonder if i'm born unlucky. others got questions for their views which allow crapping yet all my questions were knowledge-based. sigh. i think i can only dream for the scholarship.

10th December: st john course exam plus napfa

theory paper was made up of 40 true/false questions and we were given an hour -_-"' we smart dhs cadets took only 15 minutes and thus handed in early.

topography was more difficult but okay.

napfa. the poor me who have never gotten gold for napfa because of standing broad jump has finally made some improvement! from 135 cm to 151 cm! i know 151 cm sucks but it's an incredible jump okay! i'm so proud of myself (: but it's still a bronze for 15-year-old. to pass jnco standard, it's silver for 15-year-old. geesh. i'm only taking napfa for 14-year-old next year!

dropped 2 minutes for 2.4km run ): sir jianli kept running beside me and disallowed me to stop. i appreciated his "encouragement" but not only did it slowed me down (i would run faster after a nice rest), i almost collasped after the whole run because it was the first time i ran 2.4km without stopping anywhere. sigh.

after that, i went home with weiyan, didn't go for squad lunch. we talked and talked and talked. found another friend whom i can have heart-to-heart talks with! yet she's going to vjc next year. heaven is always doing this to me. i hate you!

2005-12-10T15:20:00.000+08:00

i thought you knew me best and won't misunderstand me like everyone else. since you watched me grow from a baby to a failure. or should i say, you knew well every movement i made even before i was born. i never worried about self-constraint when i was with you, sharing all personal experiences and views without hesitation and never expecting the same treatment from you. in the end? i have to bear with the disappointment of you seeing me in the same wrong light as them.

i guess this is why teenagers only stick to their friends nowadays. so, you think that i should treat you like how teenagers treat their parents? fine. our relationship shall be of materialistic plus realistic give-and-take from now on. no more trust and sharing. only money.

2005-12-07T14:53:00.000+08:00

i lost a mother; you lost a daughter. we are quits.

2005-12-01T16:13:00.000+08:00

planned to continue blogging past holiday happenings but i was just scared terribly.

my heart is still beating fast.

http://www.emusing.com/f_cg0903.asp

don't get too excited if you love horror flicks.

that only scares timids like me.

2005-11-30T19:36:00.000+08:00

here to continue blogging past holiday happenings!

7th November

watched skyhigh with simphoni at tampines mall.

it is a fabulous movie (: sweet and meaningful, it shows how teenagers with supernatural powers work together to fight against the bad guys in a supernatural school.

simphoni demanded i sign up as a member at the simei comics rental shop so that i don't have to use her id to rent comics anymore. i was reluctant because it cost $9 for a year, which would allow me to rent 7 comics. but simphoni said she wouldn't let me use her id no matter what. actually i don't need her permission to rent comics using her id since i have her id number. but being the honest me, i decided to sign up.

in the end, it turned out that the shop was having a promotion and the membership fee of $9 was waived! so i got to be a member for free!

for every 10 comics we rent at one go, we can rent 1 for free and for every 20, we get 2 for free. so i carried 11 comics home at $12 (:

10th November

jnco team meeting.

ohyah. i forgot to mention that our squad has gotten our jnco groupings already!

S - manching, weiyan, natalie, cheryl, tiffany, jocelyn, huaxin, yahui

K - hongsheng, weisong, wanting, mianmian, qingyi, xinyi, yujia, huifen

Y - samuel, shunjie, daphne, elvina, zhiying, adelyn, huiwen, biqi

group S's advisors: mam yanqi and sir jianli

group K's advisors: sir weiquan and mam sheryl

group Y's advisors: sir cheehoe and mam yeekian

yupp. as i was saying, there was team meeting for group Y. samuel didn't receive the message passed down somehow and thus didn't come. shunjie was sick. mam yeekian dunno go where. that leaves the girls in our group plus sir cheehoe.

we set ground rules (obviously asked by sir cheehoe), noted down important dates, copied down the jnco camp committee names, etc. and we decided that our group colour was to be yellow and group name:

YouthInc.

there are two pronunciations to that. hope you clever people get it!

sir cheehoe compared our jnco camp to skyhigh, explanation being we will discover the potential hidden in us after the camp just like how the boy discovered his superpowers after going to skyhigh. hm. this is the other moral of the movie i didn't realise.

started to think jnco camp more positively (:

11th November

appeal results posted on edulearn website. yaolu and i succeeded in our appeal.

3B`o6

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to be continued...

2005-11-29T15:08:00.000+08:00

feeling much much smiley now. thanks to all who tagged to help cheer me up (:

i shall now blog briefly about past holiday happenings. sorry for the extreme outdatedness!

31st October

went to tampines interchange for a new handphone charger. then to century square to buy comics!

nothing much happened on this day except that i sort of made up with fish poh (:

i was going up the escalator to the second level of tampines mall when i saw fish going down the escalator to the first level.

we had not been on talking terms for about 2 years already and of course, we did not see each other at all during that period of time too. around 2 months ago, i heard from janice that fish changed her hairstyle and i wanted to see how she looked like so i went to pasir ris mrt station at the time fish would be there. but i was late for 1 minute and fish left on the train already ): i would just say that there wasn't affinity between us.

anyway, when i saw her, i was really shocked and being the normal shocked me, my eyes widened as i stared at her. fish saw me too and her reaction was similar to mine. haha. so we were like, glaring at each other.

i don't know what possessed me but i said "hello".

after i reached the second level, fish was still on the escalator moving down.

as i was remorsing myself for having talked to fish first, i noticed she was coming after me.

yupp. so i slowed down my pace to let her catch up with me. when she was beside me already, i started the conversation by being honest about me feeling bad for having said "hello" to her first. lol. throughout the whole time, she was pretty silent except giving short replies to me. i don't feel as bad now for being the one who started the conversation because after all, she came after me (:

1st November

third aunt brought me and my brother to east coast park to cycle. pig brother lost his way and i cycled for around 10 km looking for him. he was found only after an hour later.

went to pizza hut for lunch.

tse an called me and said that there would be a 6k outing on the following thursday, 3rd november. he asked me to help check out the places where we can eat at tampines mall. the nice me agreed to help (:

2nd November

spent the whole day checking out restaurants at tampines mall plus century square.

in the end, tse an said the outing was cancelled due to poor response ):

3rd November

mom brought me and brother out. had lunch at jack's place which cost $80+!

then went to plaza singapura to buy digital camera. got a 5.0 megapixels kodak camera (:

4th November

2d class outing at orchard.

only 8 people turned up - donghang, cephas, alson, quanyi, jiawen, kathleen, meiyun and me.

there were guides' and student counsellors' activities in school that day, i suppose that explains the pathetic amount of people who turned up.

meiyun and i were on the same mrt. we were both late by half an hour. in the end, we turned out to be the earliest. followed by donghang.

dumb meiyun called cephas and she said that cephas forgot to bring his handphone out because it was his mother who answered. turned out that meiyun called cephas's house. lol.

we waited half an hour for kathleen and jiawen. then five of us went for lunch first. another half an hour later, cephas, alson and quanyi arrrived. wanted to watch skyhigh but the time slots weren't suitable. so we went to arcade!

after that, cephas and donghang went back while the rest of us walked around.

quanyi, meiyun, jiawen, me

quanyi and his nerdy smile

jiawen and her nerdy smile

meiyun, jiawen, kathleen, me

kathleen and meiyun

quanyi and alson

quanyi with his rifle and poster outside 7-eleven

cutesy jiawen and her drink

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results of subject combination was out.

i got my choice of bio-chem plus history. would be in class 3J with yao lu and sherlyn next year. but that class only had 14 people ):

5th November

met yao lu at tampines interchange because she wanted to borrow white canvas shoes for her guides camp. we decided to appeal for triple science plus history because we would be in 3B then, where there were lots of 2d people.

both of us tried to persuade sherlyn, but she really liked the combination of bio-chem plus history.

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shall continue blogging about the past holiday happenings sometime later.

2005-11-20T17:15:00.000+08:00

i feel like jumping down from the second storey. but it's such a great sin isn't it? not only will i not die, my poor mom would have to work even harder to pay my medical bills.

don't ask me what is the cause of my depression, i don't have the answer either.

is it the recent separation? is it the jnco camp plus trainings? is it the holiday homework which i haven't even touched? is it the japanese language proficiency test on 4th december? is it the SAP scholarship interview on 8th december? is it the unhappiness with my physical self? is it the loneliness i face? is it missing derrick weijian?

i'm a really horrible person who have negative thoughts despite being so blessed.

i shall blog about my holiday happenings when i feel better, but i doubt that time will come soon.

i need a counsellor.

2005-11-09T18:08:00.000+08:00

the outdated one is finally blogging about the last day of school! sorry to all who was waiting.

i did came online that day, after the class outing. it was around 1am. i tried to get my hands onto the keyboard and pour my heartfelt words out, but my sore eyes started tearing again after reading other 2dians' blogs. anyway, here comes.

some people say that the last day of school term felt like any other and they only sensed the upcoming parting when it was cleaning time. however, for me, the morning was an exceptional one which had a tinge of sadness to it. firstly, the number of morning announcements jumped from the usual average eight to that day's nineteen. this already gave us the signal that school was ending since the teachers are busy meeting up students for unfinished tasks.

then, mr sng went up and announced the retirement of three teachers. one of them was mr kiw, our never-slacking discipline master. plenty of students, mostly the superficial secondary ones, cheered for joy at the announcement. no, they were not glad that mr kiw finally gets to enjoy a break from the tiring educating work, but rejoicing that they need not count the number of hairs on mr kiw's mole while being nagged at for their tucked-out shirt, their over-eyebrow fringe, nor their socks which they claim to be perfectly he2 ge2 but deemed non-visible by mr kiw. ohwells. mr sng then read out the tributes for the teachers. in english for the other two teachers and in mandarin for mr kiw. i have heard news about mr kiw giving up the chance to be a principal who has to switch schools once every half decade because of reluctance to leave dunman high. but never did i expect that mr kiw started his teaching career here, and of course ending it here, amounting to a total 38 years in dunman high! mr sng continued his speech with how graduates from dunman high would forget the principal and form teachers, but would never fail to remember mr kiw. upon hearing the students' laughter, mr sng continued that we would be terribly wrong if we thought that was due to mr kiw always lying in wait to catch students with improper attire. instead, they remember mr kiw because of the respect they have for him. and he went on with letters mr kiw received from students.

one letter described how the writer finally understood the reason behind the seniors' respect for mr kiw. another laments how misfortunate mr kiw was to have chosen the evil role to play on the stage of school and could only shake his head in helplessness at the students' hatred and curses. believe it or not, i was crying by then.

after reading a few more letters, mr sng's emotions got the better of him, and he cried.

that wasn't surprising since mr sng was once a dunmanian after all, and he understands mr kiw's kind intentions more than any of us. although i haven't been taught by mr kiw at all, and had even been caught for my fringe, i sincerely appreciated his teachings during flag-raising -- how we should bring pride to our school by having both appropriate attire and behaviour, why we should abide by the school rules, etc. -- and it's even more saddening to see some other members [when i say members, i refer not only to students] of the school basking in happiness at mr kiw's departure.

well. thank god for the last part of the speech. after mr sng's plead, mr kiw agreed to carry on teaching higher chinese in dunman high, but of course he would step down from being discipline master ): i hope this would help slow down the corruption of the school staff committee, and prevent the students from going chaos.

hm. when i finally got back to class after going for the SAP scholarship briefing, mdm lim was collecting the streaming option form. i chose biology-chemistry combination with history. then i rushed to get people sign my autograph book.

during recess, those with cameras and camera-phones started taking pictures. the nice nice boys didn't hesitate to pose with us (:

after that, i had an errand to run and hence, went downstairs. classes were dedicating songs in the canteen and touching melodies sounded through the entire place. tears were running down everywhere too. and i saw the class photo we took on mid-autumn festival on the board in the canteen again. i didn't want to get all emotional again, so i rushed back to class.

back in class, it was cleaning up time. after cleaning, yuntong, yaolu and me ran to the staff room to get the chinese compositions we wrote based on 2d back from wu lao shi. after that, we distributed them randomly to the class and asked them to take someone else's composition to read.

at first, it was hard to get the sentiments across but once we sang peng you together, tears started rolling.. and we sang again. then we hugged. and we started cheering with muffled voices from the girls and strong ones from the boys.

2d kemama -- ole ole ah ah
2d kemama -- ole ole ah ah shake it up -- yeah
shake it up -- yeah
go... 2d!!

2d oi -- oi
2d oi -- oi
2d 2d -- sud sud oi!!

everywhere we go x2
people want to know x2
who we are x2
where we come from x2
so we tell them x2
we are from 2d x2
mighty mighty 2d x2
super duper 2d x2
when we get to heaven x2
people got to say x2
how we got to heaven x2
how we found our way x2
so we reply with a little bit of anger x2
we found our way with the mighty 2d x2
hey hey what you see now x2
2d 2d on the way now x2
go... 2d!! x2

thunder thunder thunderation
we the 2d delegation
when we cheer with determination
we create a sensation!!!

etc.etc.etc.

for those who had managed to control their tears during the song, they couldn't resist it during the cheering. so there we were, cheering with tears and our love for 2d.

then, mingwei read out his composition about 2d. and chunying's one was read out by him too. they were really touching, describing the class spirit we had during the various interclass activities, and how we helped each other.

yupps, half an hour had passed after the dismissal time yet we were still reluctant to leave. we decided to let everyone take turns in saying something to the class. in between the speeches, confessions and apologies were made to each other and at that moment, 2d was united as one, to face the devil of separation.

after hugging each other all over again, those who had stayed in spite of their ccas were asked to go for their ccas, and we bade each other farewell, promising to go for the class dinner at night.

my mind went blank when it was my turn for the individual speech although i had plenty i want you all to know. i am sure this is true for everyone. i shall now add on to my speech, although the words in my heart can never be fully spelt out.

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firstly, my apologies.

i am sorry for closing myself up the whole of last year, giving you all the cold shoulder. i am sorry for only opening up a little halfway through this year, yet treating you all with shouts with my stress as an invalid excuse. i am sorry i did not have the ability to communicate in the proper way after i had opened up to you all fully and resulting in you all thinking that i am fierce, or that i am an arrogantbossycrudedumbo or erringfakegiant or hatefulirritatingjunkykicker or lamemessynuttyoffal or proudquark or rudesuckytea or unreasonablevainwilfulxylem or yuckyzebra.

i am sorry for not having spent enough time with 2d. i am sorry for only treasuring the times when we were bonded, and not the ones we spent in class, not realising the importance of those times too.

i am sorry for my slowness in seeing how great you people are. i am sorry for admiring other classes' unity when 2d is the most united one. i am sorry for having wished that i was in another class, blind to the fact that being in 2d is one of the most wonderful thing that could happen to me. i am sorry for cherishing you all too late. i am sorry for only loving you all now, when we are unable to tell when we are going to cheer as a class again.

i am sorry!

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next, my thanks.

2d, thank you for having given the warmth enough to open me up. if not for you, i might be still stupidly sinking in depression.

2d, thank you for your forgiveness. i was once terrible to you but you was not calculating and accepted me.

2d, thank you for not being mindful of my faults. my infinite faults have caused much trouble yet you did not take it to heart.

2d, thank you for the precious times we spent as one. you made me realise the true value of time.

2d, thank you for the memories you have given me. i will hold them close to my heart forever.

2d, thank you for the friendships you have given me. they are the necessities for my survival.

2d, thank you for giving me the chance to be part of the puzzle. it is the greatest gift i ever received.

2d, thank you!
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cheryl and i went for the briefing on the ntuc cip and then went to kfc for lunch with meiyun. we met victor and george there and sat together. we talked loads and had fun. they tried to trick me with the chilli sauce but thanks to my fast reaction, i was saved (: then mingwei came with the boys' bags and zuoqi arrived too. zuoqi, meiyun, cheryl, me, george and victor went to the carpark and played volleyball. the boys rambled on about the danger the poor drivers were facing with our skills. lol.

it was the first time i went out with 2dians, yet one of the last times too.

i had never thought well of 2d boys before. but seriously, over these 2 years, they have shown that they are really great people, fun to be with and all. most importantly, they are the most gentlemanly (meaning caring, helpful and sweet) bunch i have ever seen. you all rawk (:

hm. then the group of us went to meiyun's house. they watched dvds while i wrote postcards for the class. i only finished 3. then we went to plaza singapura's pizza hut for the class dinner.

26 out of 34 of us turned up. this was the best attendance for our class gatherings. well, i am ashamed to say that it was the first time i turned up for one.

anyway, we were split up due to lack of seats. but it was still great fun. some people had curfews and had to rush home so the group of us ran in laughter to the mrt.

my stop was tampines, the second last stop of the east. it was a sad sight, seeing the 2dians in the mrt decreasing every stop, having to say -bye- every stop...

34 people in 2do5.

1 transferred to another school
bye charlotte (singapore american school)

6 going for integrated programmes in other schools.
bye zuoqi (tjc), bye weili (rgs), bye jiawen (tjc).
bye weicheng (nus high), bye clarence (tjc), bye cephas (vjc).

6 taking up SAP programme aka O level programme
junting, daphne, andy, victor, weisong, quanyi

21 taking up DHP
cheryl, grace, june, kathleen, camelia, yuntong, biyu, meiyun, sherlyn, jochebed, huiwen, yaolu, chunying, jiayao, alson, kennethkoh, eechow, mingwei, george, kennethtan, donghang

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charlotte: i am not blessed with the opportunity to know you better, but i can see that you are a great friend. thanks for your encouragement, your cheerfulness brings smiles to others, but do not forget to smile yourself!

junting: we have not talked much since i stopped taking the school bus, great pity! hm. you are great, at suaning people! lol. you are a great guide too. look at the bright side of things and do not drop tears easily, they are precious!

cheryl: hiya girl! you have heard it plenty of times already, i still must say this. you are such a nice kind person!! you always help others without complaints and apologise when you are not in the wrong. although i dont agree of it (you know why), only a nice noble person like you can do it! hm. thanks for the postcard and present, i enjoy having those heart-to-heart talks with you too (:

zuoqi: my fellow drama addict! it is my fault for noticing you so late, or we would have been able to crap about dramas together!! mm. i think you are a wise person, you actually know how to make people say you are nice, when you are not!! LOL. shou1 wo3 wei2 tu2 ba!

grace: we were on pretty bad terms last year thanks to me, i am sorry. but true friends take time to find each other right? hahas. i agree that our mindsets are quite similar, but that means you think too much!! better stop, or you will get white hair like me! yupps, and we are great partners for digital art! high5!

june: you are really nice and helpful, always there to lend a hand. it is sad that i dont know you that well.. sigh. keep up your smile and never let anything get you down!!

kathleen: sat behind you last year, thanks for trying to help me open up! really enjoyed the running during treasure hunt together, it was a great day for all of us. and i think you are very helpful too! nice kat!

daphne: i love your laughter!! lol. it was fun sitting behind you and meiyun this year. crapped loads, especially during the superstar period. dont quit japanese la! i will miss you loads ): yupps, and both np and sjab rawk!

camelia: heyheyhey! we are finally as close to each other as each of us is to that octopus! how can we let her enjoy the best of two worlds right? LOL. i love talking to you, cheem! hehes. you seldom get angry but when you are, it is scary!! and stop growing la, i am trying to catch up! dont you dare smirk, it is not impossible okay?! i shall continue my message on your autograph book, must clear the debt of 5 pages!

yuntong: i love you as much as you love me!! hahas. it was really great getting to know you better, and the heart-to-heart talks especially. our friendship was full of twists and turns, but still ended up fine because of your treat-as-if-nothing-happened attitude! i dont know whether it is a good thing, but i feel so bu4 fu2 qi4! lol. thanks for trusting me, i will miss your crapping loads!

biyu: another person i dont know well! i only know that you love green ): yupps, and also that you are an english pro which is undeniable! i seem to have an affinity with you, always seeing you outside school, and you are always wearing yellow when i see you!

weili: you cutie cutie pie!! i am gonna get killed for it! lol. only got to know you better during post-examination period. and i already found you so cute! i still dont understand why you love rgs so much. grr. dunman high rawks more! i am gonna miss you lots! and you are very welcome for the apple pie (:

meiyun: dense kia! hello, i am not as dense as you la! haha. sat behind you for two years, are we considered close? average ba. if we get into the same class next year.. ohman. what if i get as dense as you?! okie, just kidding. dont moo! mm. and you are very very stubborn! dont listen to my advice! they are golden words okay? must cherish friendships!

sherlyn: you biased biased lao3 tou2! i so nice to you also never appreciate, humph! and you are stubborn too, i still have the long sms-es when we argued over the appeal! i really hope that we can be in the same class next year.. so that we can suan each other more (:

jochebed: ... hm. i still havent gotten over it. never mind. i truly enjoyed the times we had together, crapping, arguing, etc. especially last year, post-examination period, our betting of marks. you were once a best friend to me, always there to encourage and smile. hope i see that jochebed again.

yaolu: midori!! later appeal then different class how? nono i am just scaring you! that will never come true, touch wood! we have managed to become closest friends despite our contrasting characters, i still find that a miracle now. all the times we had together, they are indescribable. we will continue our journey together!

chunying: talked to you really little in class. in my eyes, you are a mature person who takes things in her stride. hope you keep up that attitude and excel in everything you do!

jiawen: AHH WEIJIAN!! lol. only got to know you better nowadays and you have to leave already.. so cruel of you! i love talking to you about all kinda stuff, including not-very-nice-to-say ones, hehes. must sms me when you go tjc okay? i will flood your inbox! and if got weijian de concert, we chiong there together!!

andy: you are a fantastic monitor. i am serious, although you always distribute bread for them to eat in class. LOL. you are responsible in your work and manage tasks well. gentlemanly and nice too. did i bully you? hope you didnt mind, i didnt mean it!! score 11 A1s for O levels and dont get bullied again!

jiayao: irritating! CLEVER BIG DEAL AH?! i smart better okay? or is clever the better one? shucks cant remember.. anyway, just you wait, i am sure i can score better than you one day! bu2 yao4 tai4 xiao1 zhang1!

victor: always suaning me.. but you are still quite nice la, always help us in maths, thanks a lot! all the best in O levels and your pursuance! must touch her with sincerity! mm. and work harder for japanese la! always slack..

weicheng: hated you at first. but realised that you are actually pretty nice. because you ran to camelia's house for the poles remember? and when people talk to you nicely, your attitude is not that bad.. always crap though. good luck!

alson: the most helpful one and best keeper of the level! you have been really enthusiastic in class, always organising gatherings, thanks so much! and we can all see how hardworking you have been, i am sure your efforts will pay off (:

kenneth koh: never really talk to you, only scold you for eating in class. haha. hope you didnt mind! find you a quite nice person, clever and hardworking too. all the best in all you do, i am sure you can excel in your academic results!

clarence: we are always fighting verbally!! LOL. although you very very irresponsible (for playing LAN when you are supposed to be making a lantern), you did put in your best for the class t-shirts. yupps, and i find you quite nice because you dont take things to heart. jiayou in tjc and buck up for chinese!

eechow: we only started to talk a little after the exams.. always see your group of people after school at the mrt. haha. mm. you are quite clever too, work harder and you will excel in your studies! good luck for the SAP scholarship!

mingwei: hao3 hao3 xian1 sheng! you did us proud for interclass! although you only joined our class this year, everyone gets along with you very well and find you really nice and humble! jiayou and hope you do well for english (:

george: feel bad that you find me fierce.. haha. i thought i was nice to you lohs. anyway, thanku for chilling our class during lessons! although you very lame, you are really nice! good luck for band and your studies, especially higher chinese!

cephas: hated you at first too, haha. but found you a nice guy gradually. it is really sad that you have been forced to leave for vjc but i think it is a better path for you too. work harder and dont get caught for misbehaving again! everyone will miss you a lot for your chatter (:

kenneth tan: another one who always suan me.. remember your promise okay! yupps, find you quite irritating at times. do come down for our gatherings la! and good luck for badminton and studies!

weisong: you always take advantage that wo3 men2 teng2 ni3! humph. they cant see your evil side i can okay! although still find you very very cute.. haha. you smartie always complaining about your marks, sickening! my cute squadmate, grow taller and jiayou for everything!

donghang: never talk to you much but heard that you are a fun person.. i am glad that you came for the 2d outing, you felt embarrassed with meiyun and me right, sorry! be more enthusiastic and good luck for studies!

quanyi: mr know-it-all! always dont tell me gossips, irritating. i am sure i will know more than you one day! and stop being depressed! mm. i dao you sometimes because you always crap mahs, sorry sorry!! dont slack, must work hard for studies, especially chinese!
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34 of us chose different roads to walk down the path of life, and thus we have to bid farewell at this point. true, we will still be together as one in each and every one of our hearts. but who can deny that nothing will be the same again?

no more chionging for flag-raising as a class, no more chit-chatting during lessons, no more kupping answers from behind, no more secrets sharing, no more lame jokes to chill the class, no more laughing at each other's stupidity, no more going crazy over hohweijian together, no more suaning each other, no more running for treasure hunt, no more making mooncakes together, no more beaming in honour for 2do5, no more cheering for interclass, no more getting caught by mr kiw as a class, no more mdm lim's naggings, no more 2do5..

despite the many no-mores, blahblahblah. yes, i would like to have a continuation to this sentence. but i cant think of any that can satisfy me. i am sorry, i am neither brave nor optimistic. i have been failed before. only once, but that was enough. i can only cling onto the memories tightly and dream of the times we had, thats all. we can never do things as a class again.

but i promise that my love for 2d will never change.

2005-10-26T17:22:00.000+08:00

i've never in my life denied that i'm outdated, but it's only today that i realised i've been living in a world outside reality. ohwells. i'm really ignorant of all the stuff going around me. i managed to know some things today. most are others' gossips, thus i won't put it here. but there's one piece of information that i'm seriously ashamed to say that i just got to know it today.

WEILI IS GOING TO RGS, NOT NUS HIGH.

ohboy. i've always thought that she was going to NUS high -_-"' weili, i'm sorry!! lol. if not because i went to macs with weili and zuoqi today after school, even till weili's departure next year, i would still be imagining weili's life in NUS high. and i didn't ever know that..

ZUOQI IS AS CRAZY AS ME OVER SCV SERIAL DRAMAS!!!

*slaps own face* i was looking for people who have got the same passion for the dramas, but have thought that those efforts were in vain. ohboy. i was so blind!! geez. but zuoqi is leaving for TJC next year already.. ):

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we followed our time-table today in school.

geography. ms tang had some feedback forms on her lessons for us to help fill up. i think that she's a really great teacher who has strong passion for educating. for lessons, she always research for information outside our textbooks and update us with newest facts. also, she seeks all sorts of ways to help improve her teaching despite her almost perfect skills already. in my opinion, the only flaw in ms tang is her monotonous voice.

literature. ms kheng let us play the pyramid game. we were divided into 6 groups, each group had to choose a category which contains 7 words. then, there will be a clue for the words.

eg. category: mr softee
clue: things that are soft

after that, all but one of the group members are to back-face the screen which shows the words. the one group member facing the screen is in charge of giving hints to let others guess the word. of course, if the word is "fisherman", the words "fish" and "man" are not allowed to be used.

there were 12 categories so we managed to play twice each. it was really fun (:

in my mind, if there's any at all, ms kheng has always been a boring teacher who has no feelings at all. however, she actually said that she really enjoyed teaching our class! ohman. then she went on to tell us our good points which she really appreciated. sigh. i only started to like ms kheng today, yet friday is the last day i'll see her if there's insufficient affinity to let us meet again next year :(

mathematics. mr tan explained about the magic squares. we played murderer while he was explaining, but he didn't mind. when told the game we were playing, he had a doubtful expression, suggesting that he had never heard of it before. haha.

murderer was fun!! we played the winking version before the hand-squeezing one. both girls and boys played! yao lu was reluctant to hold the boys' hands at first but relented after some persuasion. lol. when we bent down our heads with eyes closed to let victor and andy tap for the selection of the murderer and detective, some of our shoelaces got untied. if i'm not wrong, it should have been cephas. haha. it was damn funny. barely after a few minutes we tied our shoelaces, they were pulled untied again.

higher chinese. wu lao shi gave us holiday homework -_-"' hais. but she also gave a touching speech. i think she knows that many students don't like her. i'm neutral about her though. sometimes she is nice but sometimes she's unreasonable.

shucks. now i'm finding the teachers likeable as well.

for those 2d-ians who can't stand mdm lim, see this. on her list of things-to-do, there was one which states buy presents for 2d. if you all still have a heart, you should feel touched. she actually wrote that on her list of things-to-do, which shows that she makes an effort to remember to buy things for us!! i'm not sure if it's for the top scorers or whatever, but it's a fact that she does something for us isn't it?

i love dunman high teachers.

2005-10-25T17:12:00.000+08:00

had a nice day with the talks while enjoying the air-con in the auditorium (:

streaming talk. the subject combinations for those in '0'-level aka SAP were pointed out. then came the ones for those in DHP. i don't really think it's much of a choice for DHP, since we only get to choose our humanity -- either geography or history --, whether we wanted triple sciences or double sciences, and our modular elective programme -- bicultural studies programme / humanities & arts modular electives / mathematics & sciences modular electives --.

i was hoping to study double humanties & double sciences. but apparantly, there's no such choice in DHP :(

yupps. the curriculum for integrated history and geography were described. ms devi, the speaker for history, prepared a whole lot of slides and always had a "want to know more about this? take up history" after a few mouthful of words. she even brought two DHP history students down to convince us that history is fun, not that they fulfilled the task well though. as for geography, mrs chin had barely a few slides, not even 5 if my memory is not failing me. and she ended her presentation with "we know that you all like geography".

ohboy. the teachers do know their students thoroughly well. but i'm an exception, i had decided to take up history since last year due to the C, the only one too, in geography. besides that, in my opinion, history really helps one think deeper. and well, i'm a thinker (: anyway, the effort ms devi put in didn't go down the drain. many are considering history because of the talk today.

hm. and i got the SAP scholarship form (: pretty glad and relieved. only 9 from our class got it. but the condition is to take up the bicultural studies (china studies put in a bilingual manner) as the elective, and i'm not that passionate to study about china. my uncle thought that it's useful to study about china though, considering the state of china.

then my uncle went on telling me about politics. how governments cover facts not in their favour. singapore is a fairly okay country, but of course, nothing is perfect. i'm not allowed to spout "rubbish" here, seeing that i don't have enough freedom of speech to say what i want to. sadness.

back to the subject combinations. i like the description of media programme under the humanities & arts modular electives. can learn photoshop and digital photography!! that would be useful if i take art elective programme next year. but i'm not allowed to, because of my third language. sigh. better stick to my languages.

there was also the prime talk. we get to design our uniform! and also logo for dhs's 50th anniversary (: dunman high is also having amazing race and extreme makeover for classrooms next year! ohman. thank goodness i chose DHP.

2005-10-24T16:43:00.000+08:00

i don't like pre-examination days, too much homework.
i don't like examination period, too much stress.
i don't like post-examination week, too much time.

geez. honestly, i'm not one who is never contented with her lot. the boredom is just too much. sigh. but there's nothing that can be changed to improve the situation because homework are supposed to be given before the exams to help us do well, and i didn't ): ohwells. i didn't do my homework, if you were wondering.

the teachers organised mind sports olympiad as part of the post-examination activities. each class had to form a team of 11 members to participate in different games. participants had fun playing, onlookers like me didn't have fun simply watching, hence the grabbing of seats to start our own games.

finals of general knowledge quiz was held in the auditorium, then the performance put up by the health promotion board. only appreciated their effort and not their humour due to a lack of interest, but it was still nice anyway.

hm. and i got back my mathematics paper 1 which i gave mr tan in hope that i'll get a 0.5 mark which neither mr tan nor us understood the purpose of the deduction. wells. i didn't dare to dream of getting the mark, or the half a mark to be exact. yet, i earned 2 marks!! whoots! i finally understand why the majority of 2d insists that mr tan is nice!! he is nice (:

so, my new mathematics paper 1 mark is 23.5/50, thus the new overall of 56/100 for end-of-year. i only got a A2 for maths for the whole year when two-thirds of the class had A1s. no more triple science for me then. never mind, my passion has never been for the maths&sciences anyway.

i will aim to strive in the arts, meaning the languages and humanities. it should be relatively easier since i'm considerably bilingual in both languages, and i've already gotten a headstart by taking up japanese as my third language. yupps. i topped the class in history this year and earned an A2 for my geography, so it shouldn't be a problem (:
hm. but i don't think dhp offers both humanities eh? sigh. that would come later then.

another step i might be taking would be to apply for the SAP scholarship if i get the letter of invitation. many feel disgusted at the thought of taking china studies as an elective, but i think it's pretty interesting. however, my mind is not set yet because i'm not sure if the other electives suit me better. ohwells. why must the condition of getting the scholarship be choosing the china studies elective? the one and only elective will stick with us for 4 years and i want to make sure i would not regret my choice okay.

2005-10-23T17:36:00.000+08:00

janice rang me up to play bball with the 6J boys just now, but splurted a "you don't have to come" halfway through. guess i didn't watch what i said. ohwells. since there's zero value in my ez-link card, and she's not expecting me, i decided to stay home and blog.

hm. results are out. some smile in delight at their unexpectedly-good results, some heave sighs of relief at their scrape-through despite last-minute work, and others shed tears of disappointment. well, i have only experienced the middle one.

for those hypocritical kpos, here goes.

english paper 1. 24/30 for complaint letter and 20/30 for composition.
english paper 2. 5/10 for cloze passage, 14/20 for comprehension, 11/20 for summary.

hcl paper 1. 7/10 for letter and 25.5/35 for composition.
hcl paper 2. 85.5/110 overall. [19.5/25 for comprehension and 9/20 for summary]
hcl eoy total: 75.3%

mathematics. 54/100 overall. [21.5/50 for paper 1 and 32.5/50 for paper 2]

science. 64/100 overall. [18/25 for mcqs, 17/25 for biology, 18/25 for physics, 11/25 for chemistry]

geography. 66/80 = 82.5%

literature. 45/75 overall. [16/25 for poetry, 14/25 for merchant of venice, 15/25 for animal farm]

dnt. 44.5/50 overall. [24.5/25 for theory and 20/25 for drawing]

art. 83% overall. [66 for individual thumbnail sketch, 91 for individual painting, 93 for group final layout & overall presentation, 79 for mindmap]

japanese. unknown. when requested for our marks, mdm lim asked us to wait for our report books.

i'm happy with art, and only art.
i'm satisfied with geography and dnt.
i'm disappointed with english, hcl and science.
i'm terribly unhappy with mathematics and literature.

so there. some ppl cry when their marks are those others would die for. sickening!

i went completely numb when i got my maths paper back. i was void of feelings at that point of time, unable to cry despite wanting to. because i didn't put in effort and my guilt stopped my tears.

same for literature. i expected much better results and my tears didn't flow because i had put in my best and there was nothing else i could do.

contradictory eh?

ohwells. everything's done and over with. hence, you ppl better stop complaining over your marks in front of my face, or i would... smack you with whatever i have in my hands, or just with my bare hands if i have nothing!!

2005-10-19T12:43:00.000+08:00

2D BOYS WON SOCCER INTERCLASS!! CHAMPIONS!!!

ohman. they really rawk. although the result is an expected one after winning their strongest opponent -2h- yesterday, the match today was still an exciting one. the guys won 3:0 against 2c today. and we cheered, jumped, laughed, whooshed, and went bonkers (:

i overslept this morning and instead of taking 2 buses as usual which will take around 1hr 30mins, i had to find an alternative to get there earlier. obviously, the best choice would be a taxi trip which takes 15mins, but i am left with not even 20 bucks for the month due to travelling in around 10 taxis for October. thus, i took bus 2 to tanah merah, then mrt to aljunied, and finally a taxi to sch.

i'm glad i didn't miss the match today, like i did yesterday. darn the sports leaders. the time written on the board was 3.45pm when the correct time was around 9am. i went to sch at around 3pm and waited in vain for 2 hours. blearghs. thank goodness they won yesterday's match, otherwise i would have missed the crying-together part. but still, not only precious time was wasted, but also the transport fees of 7 trips.

lalala~ 2d wonwonwon! 2d rawkrawkrawk! 2d besbestbest! 2d zui4zui4bang4! 2d wo3ai4ni3!

2005-10-17T21:18:00.000+08:00

i am facing a computer crisis now, having to pay my mommie's office a visit and make a snatch for the computer when my uncle makes a trip to the toilet. and the computer is so behind times that neither can i visit yun tong's blog nor tag at janice's board. ohman. and i have to sneak to my uncle's room and use his labtop while he's out.

after using my uncle's labtop, i realised that janice's blog has music which that shitty office computer can't project to my ears. same for the music at my blog. and now, i am stuck here blogging because both midis, and derrick weijian's tian kong, are so sweet and touching that i am tearing, not only because of the huge amounts of memories they bring to my mind, but also because of the exciting serial drama i am missing right now.

sigh. all the classes are really bonded at this time of the year, when they will be facing seperation soon. it's really heart-breaking, but there's nothing we can do. this is a phase everyone must face when growing up.

why why why? why must they torment us once every few years? i hate this. i have just started to love you all and we have to split up - - -

2005-10-17T18:08:00.000+08:00

had interclass today. boys' soccer won but girls' volleyball didn't. but still think the girls did really well (: and we showed loads of class spirit today! especially the nice nice boys who came over and cheer for the girls! hahas. their form of cheering was really special, because it includes dancing and singing! ohman. i'm gonna so bu she de 2d. hope that the boys get champion! go go jiayou!

ate lunch at kfc with grace and crapped loads. then off we went to the library, i took a short nap while grace read and read and read. lols. and grace insisted that maple isn't childish and ignorant. blearghs. i'm NEVER gonna play maple even if i am soon dying of boredom. i promise.

ohman. jiawen has put derrick weijian's tian kong on her blog. those super slow ppl who hasn't fall in love with derrick weijian yet, hurry off to jiawen's blog!

2005-10-15T10:54:00.000+08:00

two more weeks. and everything will come to a standstill.

must i say it? i don't want to say it if it's okay not to.

but what if i regret it some years down the road?

or maybe even right after the two weeks?

i'd better get it out of my chest now.

everyone in 2d`o5 is cute, nice & sweet. including the boys.

2005-10-14T18:19:00.000+08:00

i tried to pretend that nothing happened. i would reply if you have started a conversation. but you didn't give a damn. and don't expect me to open my mouth first since i still seriously think that the one at fault here is not me.

forget it. i guess our friendship has reached an end.

or has it never ever started in the first place?

2005-10-14T17:56:00.000+08:00

the excess amount of time after the exams allows me to submit a third post for the day, so why not?

went to tampines mall and century square today to shop for presents for some people. burnt a big hole in my pocket but from my point of view, the smiles i see in return would be worth much more (:

after the shopping, i felt happiness. really, there's no second word for the feeling i had. i wonder if it's because of the end of exams or the thought of the smiles i would be seeing. whatever it is, i am in a really good mood today :)

hm. and i agreed readily when my dear mommie asked me to tutor my primary-3 brother. here's the conversation (translated version) between us:

mommie: it's not too much to ask you to tutor your brother right?
me: *smiles* of course not. and it would not be too much to ask for some fees eh?

hahas. i deem it a duty to coach my brother in his studies without any reward but i am left with almost nothing for my monthly allowance, and there's still half a month to go. and i have to plan for the outings with my buddies after the exams (:

mm. another kind deed today was helping my uncle to type the labels on the typewriter. i was reminded of the enthusiasm janice had when she saw the typewriter a few years ago. and i called her, hoping that her passion for the typewriter is still strong.. but nobody picked up the call ):

2005-10-14T17:31:00.000+08:00

here's a brief summary of my thoughts about the exam papers:

literature. for merchant of venice, i only revised the first few scenes - i was lucky that the question on merchant of venice was from the scene i studied. as for animal farm, i did not revise at all but i had some memory of what ms kheng discussed with us in class, so it was pretty fine too, just that i missed out some points. not that i would have the time to add in the points though. we only had 1hr 45mins to complete the 3 questions and most of us spent around 1hr on the first question - the one on unseen poem, there was plenty of stuff to write for that, and had to rush through the next two questions.

science. i spent most of my time on this subject other than geography. true, there was a few questions that are really baffling but compared to last year, i would say that this paper is pretty fine. although most of the ppl i know thought that science was most difficult.

mathematics. darn. my goosebumps can't help rising at the mention of this subject. paper 1 totally sucked - not enough time at all. we had more sufficient time for paper 2 but it was still difficult for me. because i didn't revise my maths at all. and throughout the whole year, i was half asleep during maths lessons. i can only pray that i'm blessed enough to pass with the number of blanks i left ):

higher chinese. studied really little for this too. for "tian2 xie3 han4 zi4", i have a few mistakes already, because that's dependent of what i have studied. one of them was a really simple question, i had the answer in my mind once i saw the question. but i thought that it can't be that easy, and racked my mind to think of some cheem words. i wrote down a word more cheem which i don't think is the correct answer. and when i checked with my friends.. yupps. it's the really simple answer. geez. i hate myself for thinking so complicated.

dnt. thanks to janice, i managed to revise quite a bit for this. so for the theory part, i am pretty confident of making no mistakes. i wouldn't dare to say the same for the drawing section because although i don't think i drew anything wrongly, my skill at drawing is too pathetic for me to have any comments.

2005-10-14T16:40:00.000+08:00

yao lu and me have telepathy (: here are two pieces of evidence that prove so:

1. short-term memory

we had dnt exam today. i slacked the entire yesterday and when i finally can't bear with my conscience's naggings at 9pm, i dragged my way to my room to search for my long-lost dnt textbook - only to remember that i left it in my locker, in sch. i was shocked out of my wits and racked my brains for different solutions. i could ask someone to scan the textbook and send to me, call up close friends and ask them to read the text while i copy it down... but my computer broke down and i'm sure my friends were studying dnt. i would be interupting their revision if i used the latter.

then janice's nice angelic face flew by in my head :) yupps. so i called up janice and explained my pathetic state. she finished her eoys already. she was really nice and said she would wait for me with her textbook at the staircase near her block. note that it was nearly 10pm - the sky was pitch-dark, not to mention the creepy atmosphere with hardly any soul in sight. when i reached there, janice looked damn frightened. but she still waited for me. janice, you are the kindest angel ever, i love you loads (:

after i had the book safe in my hands, i wanted to call yao lu and tell her about my stupidity. but i reckoned that she would be revising so i changed my mind. guess what. when i arrived in class this morning thinking that i must be the one and only dumbest person with such a short-term memory, i didn't even have time to think why the sudden change in yao lu's no-last-minute-studying attitude, since she was busy flipping through her dnt textbook, when she cried out that she forgot to bring her book home.

lols. strong bonding between us eh?

2. bus incident

after dnt exam today, our class was going to play volleyball together. yao lu and camelia had to go for a guides' talk and yao lu asked me to go play first, they would look for me after the talk. so i went to change into my pe attire and searched for them. after walking round the sch a few times in vain, i went back to class. kathleen and weili said that they thought i went home already, so they should be on their way home.

i ran to the bus stop outside the sch to see if i was lucky enough to see yao lu there [camelia walks home]. ohwells. bus 158 just left the stop and i was about to turn back when the bus stopped at the traffic light. i tried to see if yao lu was on the bus -- and there she was, at the other side of the bus! thank goodness my st john junior, who was also on the bus, saw me. after some direction-giving, she tapped yao lu to get her attention for me. but just as yao lu saw me, the light turned green and the bus drove off!!

my first instinct then was to run to the next bus stop which was like, 10-minutes-walk away. as i ran, i could only pray hard that yao lu had the same mindset and would alight. well. she did (: we ran towards each other like the lovers you see in serial drama. hahas. i'm not a lesbian la, but the scenario seriously reminds me of romance dramas.

wonderful telepathy between us, agree?

2005-10-08T09:03:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YAO LU (:

get ready to receive your present from me on monday!!

took geography paper yesterday and hcl paper 1 on thursday. hcl was okay, but i made a mistake in the format of letter writing ): geography multiple choice and structured questions quite easy, but mapwork was totally sucky. was hoping to get a few correct by guessing. but luck was not on my side.

met simphoni after sch yesterday and we went to kfc for lunch. had a nice chat abt everything. she could only admire boys on the bus and mrt since she's from a girls' sch. and she had a lot to say abt them. lols.

i still miss my primary sch friends loads.

one more week to the end of exams. and another few more to seperation.

what else can we do other than watching time fly by and stare helplessly at it? ohman. why couldn't i just keep my promise to myself at the start of last year? i am a failure. a hopeless failure.

2005-10-05T12:12:00.000+08:00

thanks to our wonderful principal mr. sng, today has been made a sch holiday for dhs students as a reward for dunman high sch having earned the school excellence award :)) actually the real purpose in having this holiday is to give us the time for last minute study -- this shows how well mr. sng understands us (:

i have seen the news of student bloggers getting suspended from sch because of offensive remarks about their sch in their blogs. i am not sure about the things mentioned in their blogs so it's better for me not to make any comments. but i would really like to know if schools nowadays track down the blogs of their students to spot check for remarks that would spoil their reputation.. if this is the case, how are we supposed to blog our thoughts truthfully without worries? not that i have any negative things to say about dhs though. i think it's the best sch ever, especially with our wonderful principal :))

2005-10-04T16:28:00.000+08:00

the music assessment is finally over. don't have to fret any longer about what mistakes i might make since the milk has already been spilt.

really moody these few days, i have been staring into space hoping that my soul would drift away into the clouds and forget all my troubles. but i'd better not try that in a public place if there is a next time.

the exams are seriously getting on my nerves. in addition, the release of the ca2 marks at this time is really inappropriate. don't they know that the impact of disappointment can be so big that one's confidence gets beaten by it? i tried to spur myself on to work even harder for the eoys but to no avail. others mug harder in order to make up for their previous marks but i only get the spirit to mug when i have been getting good grades. i need somebody to boost my confidence!!

didn't feel particularly good today but my mood changed for the better when wu lao shi returned us our hcl compo :) heh. i always turn positive when my hcl assignments are returned. but the problem is, wu lao shi always take a long time to return them :( anyway, i bought a handbag for my mom and sweets for my little brother on the way home. and i felt great after that. much more smiley (:

advise for today:

when you feel down, try doing something nice. you'll feel much better afterwards :))

2005-10-03T17:09:00.000+08:00

saw that freak again today. after sch when we were abt to hand in our art.

i didn't want to mention any bit of that horrible incident in my blog. to protect my friend's interest. well, i still don't want to mention abt it now. but i shall talk abt that freak's freakingly freaky freak-behaviour. not that it affected me a teeny weeny bit. just that it's too idiotic to my preference and i find it a disgrace to be in the same sch as such an idiotic freak.

well. all this started becos you haven't enough discipline and self-control. we have been told a million times not to cheat. even when it's not for your own benefit. oh. maybe it is. who knows why you "helped" them? so that they will gain short-term by getting high marks this time? or have you a long-term ulterior motive to land them into trouble when the eoys come? this only you know.

hm. and i did what i ought to do. although many told me i shouldn't have done it since i would have gotten into trouble with you, till now, i still think that it wasn't wrong. well. it was MORALLY correct. i guess you don't have enough moral values to think that what i did was correct. of course, since you don't have that minimal moral values a human being should have, i guess it's not surprising to see your despicable behaviour now. verbal abuse and rolling of eyes? all these erased the regret i had for doing what i did upon thinking that you just wanted to help your friends.

1. your verbal abuse
for god's sake, if you wish to hurl verbal abuse at me, check up your dictionary for some better vocabulary! the one you used not only had no basis, but is also with little or perhaps no standard at all! i seriously wonder how you debate with that standard of vocabulary in your head.

2. rolling of eyes
well. you are already white enough, you don't have to show off the white in your eyes to me! i didn't even noticed you walking by until you rolled your eyes, that was when i realised some movement and started to look around to see what was moving. but still, i didn't notice you cos you were camouflaged by the white in your eyes. thank goodness your eye ball rolled back and i finally realised that i was looking at you.

you were not the only one who was involved in the incident but you are the only one i mention now. the reason is obvious but i guess i'd better state it seeing that you might not be able to infer from the amt of knowledge you have.

as i have already said, i don't want to implicate my friend so i didn't want to mention any detail of that incident in my blog. but. the fact that you can't understand that you were wrong (which i can't really blame you for with that amount of moral values in you) despite the talks given by the teachers and even wanted to drag your friends down by asking them to hurl verbal abuse along with you gave me an urge to report you once again. however, for the sake of you, i decided that it would be better not to. since you won't be that lucky to get off without a black mark on your record again. but. there are really serious problems with your discipline so i hoped that by putting all these on my blog, you might one day be able to read these and be enlightened by my words. i will try my very best not to be hurt by the fact that somebody with a low standard of character actually reads my blog :))

i really wonder where did your tears come from if they weren't of regret. regret of having done the wrong thing. were they of sympathy for yourself or were they for show?

may you one day finally realise that you were wrong.

2005-09-30T16:32:00.000+08:00

somebody who is going to the superstar concert today, PUH-LEASE help me record it!!

especially the part where weijian impersonate the judges!

i will love the kind soul to bits ((:

2005-09-30T15:50:00.000+08:00

took japanese paper yesterday. i thought i could trust on my not bad memory so i only studied the day before. well, i was proven wrong. i shall not harp on it since it's already over. may i get a passing grade.

after the disastrous jap exam, i was prepared to work hard for the other subjects. i planned to study for english at night. but i forgot abt it and slept immediately after the serial drama ended. i only remembered in the morning. i guessed i don't have a good memory after all. thank goodness it's english. if it was geography, i would be in a coffin by now.

anyway, among the 5 topics given for the essay, i chose the argumentative one -- are rich children happier than the children from poorer families -- at first. halfway through, i realised that there wasn't enough inspiration for that topic and thus, i hurried to write a new one -- the pains of growing up --. this topic suits me better as i have enough experience for it.

one of my points for the essay was, as one grows up, he will face friendship problems which sometimes cause the friendship to end. please don't ever let this happen to you. stop being stubborn, you should reflect on what have you done to deserve this treatment. i bet a million dollars you will regret it when you have to leave each other.

the above paragraph is dedicated to YOU.

2005-09-27T15:12:00.000+08:00

i miss hohweijian :(

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.weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian
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.weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian .weijian

i cant bear to listen to your songs, they always make me tear.
hope that you are not having a difficult time in army.. JIAYOU!!

irritating advertisements.
stop popping out of nowhere and claim that i won whatever prize.

did you think that i am that stupid to believe it?
or did you picture a 3-year-old surfing the net?

i do not welcome things which think that i am stupid to appear on my computer screen okie.
so get lost, stop bothering me. my mood is bad enough already, thank you.

BUT. if you happen to find out that i have won tickets to the superstar concert, you are welcome to pop out anytime.
rest assured that i will click on the window without hesitation (:

2005-09-26T17:47:00.000+08:00

today has go to be the unluckiest day i have ever had. first i missed three buses and now my long long post has disappeared. geez. i am not going to bother retyping the post.

hais. i am such a failure in everything. studies, friendship, family, st john, everything. i am so gonna fail my maths and science :( i just lost some friends too. and i wasnt very nice to my mother when she was ill. i am starting to fear jnco camp too. AND i miss derrick weijian!! sobs. i am listening to his songs now and my tears are abt to fall soon.. i would feel so much better if i was going to their concert this friday but everybody's mugging for the exams and nobody would go with me :(

somebody just kill me please.

2005-09-24T09:05:00.000+08:00

just visited zuoqi's and jiawen's blogs. and i was reminded that they are leaving for IPs next year. and, now i remember 2d'o5 is going to split up next year.

when i first came to dunman high, i was so upset abt having to leave my primary sch friends that i had to go for counselling. i once told the counsellor that i do not want to start any close friendships. i dont want to have to experience the heart-breaking pain of parting. and i did just that. i shut myself up totally for the next few months. i hoped that i would become a loner in the class. someone who will not be noticed even when gone missing.

however, i did not manage to keep to the promise. by the end of last year, i had a few close friends. but i told myself that it was okay since there was still quite a high chance of landing into the same class as them in sec 3, because there was only the few of them. it was unlike the case in 6k, where i loved the whole class.

well. as usual, time flies. and it is already the second last month 2d can joke and laugh in the same classroom. compared to a year ago, i, being the one without self-control, have already made friends with the whole class. i experienced the company of our wonderful people, the wonderful class spirit, the wonderful fun we had as a class. and i am not someone with a heart made of ice. my liking for 2d has grown tremendously.

what will happen to us next year? will the scattered us still be able to come as one? will we still remember the wonderful times we had? will we act as if we are strangers when we meet each other along the corridors in dunman high? will we still be able to recognise each other if we are in the same university?

tian1 xia4 wu2 bu4 san4 zhi1 yan2 xi2. thus, i will not cry again.

but i must say this. 2d, wo ai ni.

2005-09-17T15:32:00.000+08:00

mid-autumn festival celebration in school yesterday was fun!! activities in school became more interesting since mr sng joined. he is the best principal ever ((:

after lessons ended yesterday, i took out the materials prepared the night before and started making a lantern for the competition. each class was supposed to submit two lanterns and i asked the SPCs to each lead a group and make the lanterns but apparantly, none of them did it. june gave me a reason i still dont quite understand. as for clarence, he did came out with something, but it was just a paper cylinder without both top and bottom. i thought he would continue working on it after school but guess what. he went to play LAN. geez. well, thank goodness i sort of anticipated something similar would happen so yao lu and myself prepared materials to make the lanterns for the competition. thus, camelia and yao lu worked on the materials yao lu brought and i independently did my lantern. weili and zuoqi were nice to continue working on the paper cylinder clarence made :) yupps, so we submitted 3 lanterns in the end.

at 2 o'clock, junting, meiyun, yao lu, camelia and i attended the mooncake making workshop. it was pretty fun overall, and we made 14 nice nice large mooncakes (: after mooncake making, camelia, yao lu and i played the "dao zhuang ju", the game which you have to read the words in the other order, with biyu, sherlyn and jocelyn. sadly, i just couldnt get the rhythm right and had to be coached over and over again. i managed to understand better with you ppl's patience, thanks loads :))

at 5.30pm, the mid-autumn festival celebration officially started. 2d assembled in the bball court with our red class-tees and battery-operated cartoon-shaped lanterns because we misinterpreted the teacher's instructions. we were told not to bring lanterns with candles, thus we brought battery-operated lanterns. however, from being the only class which brought battery-operated lanterns and the teachers' surprised looks, i presume that they meant for us to bring the traditional lanterns without putting the candles. but it doesnt matter since it made our class stand out from the rest (:

thanks to the PSG, we had tidbits and pomelos. camelia and i went to the hostel canteen and took our mooncakes out from the refrigerator. everyone had trouble finishing the food, but it was a fun process afterall. and mr low, our vice principal took photos for cam, tong, yao lu and me. then it was riddles time!! each class was given three same worksheets to pass around and we were suppoesd to compile it on one of the paper and hand in to the student councillor in charge. thanks to the geniuses in class, we filled up the whole piece of paper :)

after that, jiawen, kathleen, yao lu, cam and i went for the treasure hunt. it was really a night walk and student councillors tried to scare us. they were only successful with the sec 1s actually. we had to run around looking for places in the school with a clue. the last place was found with the help of quan yi and clarence. in the end, we ran back to the canteen and completed the jigsaw puzzle of a photo. 1d, 2d and 3d took photos together and we cheered (: then we went back to the bball court to join the rest of the class.

when we went back, prizes for lantern-making were given out. our class manage got second and third!! weili and zuoqi's lantern got third and mine got second! yao lu was quite sad but cheered up in the end :) after that, the celebration ended but 2d were still on a high mode. we did cheers and wooshes, took plenty of photos, distributed the food we won, etc. it was really a great great night!

although i got my rahes (feng mo) again yesterday, my mood wasnt affected because of the fun. but after i reached home, i found that they had spread all over my body felt really disgusted. went to see the doctor just now, and realised that this was a skin allergy. the doctor suggested that it was my own sweat i was allergic to, seeing that i only got rashes when i went out. sigh. how am i supposed to go through the jnco camp if i was allergic to my own sweat?

2005-09-08T17:41:00.000+08:00

didnt post recently cos i wanted to keep the last two posts at the top for a while, those are the cheem-est i can go with my standard of english language. hahas. few ppl think of me as smart cos the profound side of me only comes out when i am:

1. mean or critical

being nice almost all the time, i dont get mean and start criticising ppl with words that they can hardly understand. and those unlucky ones who heard the criticisms of mine would never admit that i am smart. well, the world is fair. when you are referred as nice, you will never get labelled profound.
p.s. just in case some of you dont get what i mean, the conclusion of the entire paragraph above is: i am nice :))

2. clear-minded

i am always biased and never willing to face reality, like in the case of project superstar. i was crazy over weijian (i still am) and could not accept the fact that weilian won him, thats why i insisted that it was unfair. after processing it through my mind over some time, i got over it and admitted that weilian deserved to win. well, the sad thing is that i am also biased most of the time and would never bother to look at things in other perspectives. this is another reason why the profound side of me gets hidden.

yupps. thats all for this post. you have the permission from me to feel that this is lame cos this is just something i crapped out of boredom. hope you enjoyed my crap ((:

2005-09-03T16:24:00.000+08:00

the photos of the project superstar finals have been on the frontpage of almost all the newspapers lately. there have been discussions or rather objections about the final winner all around. this post will be regarding my own opinions and feelings of the contestants.

back to the time when there were only 3 contestants left in both the male and female category. it was either weijian, junyang or weilian out. teenagers like us obviously hope that the last name mentioned gets eliminated. when weijian turned out to be the one instead, i blamed it on weilian only and not junyang cos although i was a fan of weijian, i knew that junyang had the best voice and would be deserving of the superstar champion. then, once again, weilian's fans proved most supporting when junyang lost despite the advantage of the higher marks. another group of fans started to push the blame on weilian.

as for the female category, i did not really listen to their singing carefully and thus would have preferred kelly to xinhui since kelly was a singaporean. however, on the finals of the female category, i found xinhui's singing most touching and realised that she is another sincere contestant who gives her utmost best efforts as can be seen from the tremendous improvement of her singing since the start. thus i gave her 5 votes. when it turned out that kelly won the fight, i did not have any hard feelings as kelly was also a good choice cos both her voice and character are great. it was a pity for xinhui. she should have tried to capture her audience's attention earlier and also speak appropriately in front of the camera.

yupps. and on to the finals. i expected weilian to win despite knowing that kelly sings better. the reason being i know that weilian has got fans who will do everything to let him win. moreover, kelly's fans would prefer her to sign the contract with universal. thus, they would just give her their support by cheering for her. well, it was the first time that my prediction came true. weilian won.

after processing everything through my mind, i have this to say. people should stop insulting weilian or groan about the results. one reason being no matter what you do, weilian is still the winner. nothing will be changed and hurting weilian does not achieve anything, nor benefit anyone. also, this competition is totally fair. the competition is not about singing skills, but about support from fans. weilian has proved to have more supporting fans. yupps. and you cant deny that they are not all sympathy votes. who in the world will have that much sympathy as to vote for him until they go broke? people are touched by his voice. by his courage to go on competing despite his visual disability. it is true that weilian sang badly during the finals, but in the past competitions, he did pretty well too. and his fans choose to believe that he will do better and thus vote for him.

yupps. i think that this result is quite a happy ending. kelly getting the contract with universal music, the company that is better in many's eyes. weilian seeing a new hope, not having to sing on the streets again. weilian's fans being happy that the voice that touched them has won and kelly's fans will still get to hear her voice through her album. most importantly, singapore has proved herself to be fair and not biased against disabled or handicapped people. this tells the world that as long as you have the talent, you will have a chance to succeed in singapore :)) also, this also proves that singaporeans not only look at the appearance and "packaging" to determine their superstar, they also think that a good voice is important ((:

2005-09-03T15:49:00.000+08:00

since you feel that i dont deserve to know nor understand what in the world is going on, i will stop bothering you.

i guess it was my own fault for thinking that i have found a friend whom i can trust and who think likewise. i overestimated myself. i am nothing but someone who can be made use of. my feelings are not worth considering. i am just a puppet in your eyes.

in the beginning, when you started to change your attitude towards me, blowing sometimes hot and sometimes cold, i thought i did something wrong. then i realised that this is what you always do. it was the ignorant me who thought that i knew you. there are patient and kind friends by your side who do not take offence when you give them the cold shoulder, and will be ready to help you when you finally think that they deserve your attention. but sorry, i am not one who can tolerate this behaviour. if that bad habit of yours only occurs once in a while, i will not take it to heart. however, in your case, it is getting too serious. how do you expect ppl, being a true friend, to open their hearts to you and share whatever is in their minds with you when they cant predict the treatment you will give them the next minute?

human beings are not complicated, it is the way you see them that is comlicated.

2005-08-29T14:55:00.000+08:00

RASHES = DISGUSTING GROSS

yucks yucks yucks. i have been suffering from rashes (i dunno the proper english name for the disease, the chinese name is "feng mo" anyways) since last week. they appear and go after i apply the zhenzhu fen, just to reappear at a different part of my body. blearghx. just now mdm lim called and asked me whether i went to see a doctor. i thought that she wanted to see a medical certificate when i go to sch. turned out that she was afraid i was suffering from dengue. because cephas ong, unfortunately, is having that fate. although i dont appreciate having his loud voice echoing throughout the whole classroom everyday, may he get well soon.

actually i am guilty for not going to sch today.. if not because i went to imm yesterday for the project superstar autograph session just as my rashes were recovering a little, i might be alright by now. anyways, i went there with my laopo, yujia again. i printed out the djeirainc membership form and gave it to a fellow member yesterday. we managed to squeeze to the third row but again, only saw weijian for a few minutes. i took some pictures of him but quite blur. yujia took down video clips of him using her phone. very clear lehs!! wo yao wo yao video phone! yupps. the contestants wore white colour shirts again. weijian still as cute as ever :)) will really miss him when he goes to ns. hope he doesnt get bullied.. jiayou weijian!!

i dont really get what you mean. how complicated can life and people get? it depends on how you see them actually. and what issit i am to let go of, when i dont understand anything? i want to know what you are thinking of.

2005-08-24T17:48:00.000+08:00

you did not like her

you told me about her

you could not stand her

you were biased against her

you convinced me that she was up to no good

and now, you appear to be best friends with her.

maybe i have some misunderstandings. but somehow i feel a sense of having been betrayed and deceived. and i absolutely do not like this feeling. is this what you meant by complicated people?

2005-08-21T18:58:00.000+08:00

went to west mall for the superstar qian chang hui with yujia.. saw weijian!! :))

we tried out best to squeeze to the front and we managed to, thanks to yujia (: we were in the rain for like three hours but only got to see him for 15 mins.. but it was worth it!! hais. he was the shortest and smallest. always behind the rest. so didnt manage to take photo of him. got a photo of junyang and kelly though :) still cant believe that weijian got eliminated.. cried the whole night when the results were out. he rawks totally.

weijian has a cute and shuai face. nice hair. touching voice. admirable sincerity. filial piety. most importantly, wonderful character. he is never hypocritical :))

yupps. and juliet sec 1s got second for the comp!! couldnt believe it lo. i called yujia for the results and burst in laughter when i knew it. rushed back to school immediately after flag day. hahas. they got last in two components and first in one. and they got second overall. unbelievable eh? i love them :))

2005-08-05T15:38:00.000+08:00

first time i am out of the school so early.. but theres routine training tmr.. full training and it's my turn to be ic. dont feel as stressed abt trainings already.. whatever they say, we just do and nothing will go wrong :)) hmm.. std ones are starting trainings for their comp le.. their footdrill still need lotsa improvements. i guessed we were the same last year.. theres not much time left to the comp so hope they buck up (:

my phone bill just came yesterday and it exceeded 100 bucks. goodness. my mom was shocked and i could only calm her down by telling her that i would pay it myself. guess it's becos of the superstar show.. i was stupid enough to sign up to know more info, not realising that for every sms i receive, my phone bill would increase by 2 bucks. it amounted to 34 bucks. but i will still continue to support derrick :))

monday's national day celebration and we will be wearing our class tee :)) red and white. patriotic eh? yupps. and got back chem test paper today. 16/25. hais. shall work harder next time.

2005-07-30T14:03:00.000+08:00

had st john routine training yesterday. the first training with the std 3 instructors. loads of us thought that it was abit too hiong but we told them it was just nice when they asked. we wanted them to know that we could do it :)) yupps. i was really happy with our performance yesterday, especially the changing part. they gave us 6 mins and we managed it in 5 mins 10 secs!! super happy :) the instructors were pretty sweet cos they did circuit pumpings with us ^^ but they were really fierce yesterday.. yanwen praised me after the whole training for the pt-cum-toc for not giving up and my squad clapped for me but i didnt feel that i deserved it.. i almost gave up. hahas. after joining st john, my perserverance really increased lots :)) ohyah, i am gonna be the i/c next training.. very scared.

after training, we took bus 30 together. then i walked with mianmian and my meimei zhiying. i searched all the newspaper stands for the magazine i weekly or something like that. it has the superstar profiles and everything!! although it was just published on thursday, almost all the newspaper stands were out of stock. thank goodness i found it. it really rawks :)) then mianmian went home and i walked with zhiying to the bus stop below her house. we talked lots. then she asked me who i liked. - - - i didnt plan to tell her but she said that she told me all abt her.. but hers not anyone we know mahs. hais. but in the end, somehow, i admited when she guessed it =_="' i wouldnt say the name but i didnt want to lie when she guessed it. hais. i dunno if i still like that person anyways. and zhiying promised me she would not say anything to anyone. i trust her :)) then i took bus 2 home. i was holding my protector with st john uniform, a super heavy art file where i threw my homework file into, my shoe box with my boots and my i weekly magazine. and the bus was full. just then, a nice-looking woman saw an empty seat and asked me to take it. i replied that it was okay and she asked if i was sure. i nodded and thanked her so she sat down. so so so sweet right :)) yupps. then i was standing beside her when the bus moved and i didnt have any spare hands to hold on to the handle, so i was like shaking to and fro. and she held my hand to prevent me from falling!! gosh. i really wanted her as my mom but i love my mom too :))

yupps. and someone's bdae is coming!! hahas. an advanced happy birthday and stay happy :))

2005-07-25T13:00:00.000+08:00

had pop on saturday and stayed till sunday morning..

during the parade, yahui and me were the medics -- first-aiders. throughout the whole parade, only one std1 and hongsheng felt unwell. the std1s have pretty good stamina :)) anyways, they played really touching songs during the parade and when grace tan took over carmen's place, the memories of the times with carmen all flooded back.. when carmen took over qiaoping last year, the same thing happened but somehow, i felt twice as much sadness on saturday.. during all the routine trainings, we angered carmen loads. she did not shout at us but when we saw her upset face, our heart ached.. i dunno if we have met her expectations of us but i am sure we will not disappoint her :) yupps. and the std4s cheered while they marched on the track. it was really really touching.. and i heard that some std4 guys cried.

we cheered for the std4s when they walked into the canteen for dinner. the lights were off and there were candles all over.. then they led the food cheer for the last time.. :(( after that it was performance time. it was quite okaes. and my squad is really unlucky as can be seen from the lucky draw.. we dont get anything for lucky draw and are the first ones to win when it was unlucky draw.. lols. then we had mass dance.. chicken dance for dunno how many times. tiring but fun (: after that we gave the souvenirs to the std4s. we made heart cushions for them and we gave carmen a booklet with testimonials from every one of us. hope that she liked it :)) after the performance, we had a talk with our instructors. we didnt talk much.. :( i hope that the instructors, especially carmen, will know that although we didnt say much, we will really miss them loads cos they have been really great and we LOVE them with all our hearts!!

2005-07-22T14:19:00.000+08:00

hooray!! yayness!! derrick got into the semi-finals!! lalala~ kelly got in too! although i dont like her extremely -- like derrick --, but i think she sings well and is pretty :)) yao lu is sad that leon got eliminated but i am sure she would be sad too if derrick was out. so since only one contestant can get into the next round, derrick would be the best choice (: i was trembling when i watched the results last night lohs. thank god.. hmm. the two male contestants i hope will stay inside are derrick and junyang :)) jiayous! for the females i think kelly sings the best ^^.

2005-07-21T19:04:00.000+08:00

i really hope that derrick will be able to get into the next round.. his sincerity is so admirable can.. and he's cute!! thank goodness he got the highest in the revival round.. almost all the judges were touched by him. and li wei song said that he almost cried!! hahas. i already almost cried when i saw his bio lohs. ohwells. i voted 10 times for him.. if he doesnt get into the next round me not gonna vote for anyone again..

2005-07-21T16:41:00.000+08:00

boos. my bdae so fast over le. anyways, thankies to all who sent me bdae greetings!! lurve ya all loads loads :)) especially jun -- she sent sms at midnite! jan was next -- 5:50:42 am!! then i went to sch for pop rehearsal and met meiyun (: she said she wanted to send at midnite but fell asleep. lols. such a sweetie!! hmm.. then were cheryl n adelyn. cheryl gave me postcard!! later on was the whole bunch of squadmates :)) lurve them loads! natalie even vandalised my hand with greetings! hahas. then i received kathleen's sms ^^. yupps. then went to bishan for jap CA4. it didnt go well but who cares.. the impt thing was i received yao lu's prezzie!! she sharing with camelia n cheryl. lurve the prezzies loads! lurve them even more :)) n then after third lang, sat bus with felicia. she treated me to neoprints for bdae prezzie! but not enough time to decorate.. sads. but it was the process that mattered! and the most shocking one was frm tzu hsiang!! she's such a wonderful junior!! lurved the bdae song!! mm.. then received jiayao's sms. very shocking too.. hahas. and i just opened the e-greeting from jochebed!! the donkey was kewt! hahas. not much prezzies but i noe i will get more soon (:

2005-07-18T01:22:00.000+08:00

19th July.

This date sounds terribly familiar doesnt it? I shall be kind and remind you all what date it is. That sacred day that happens to be tomorrow is the birthday of the owner of the blog you are reading now! I know her really well and I can tell you that she will definitely not mind having more presents x)

okies. i shall stop crapping. hais. oh yars. yao lu and camelia bought presents for me together. and due to some bad luck, one of the presents is the cd of lin jun jie -- jiang nan --, which i just bought on saturday.. sigh. why didnt either of us chose the other cd of his? this shows that we have the same taste ba :) i shall try to see if i can change the cd to another one since i have not opened it yet..

2005-07-18T00:00:00.000+08:00

me staying at fifth aunt's house todae for the e-learning thingy cos my computer broke down. guess what. my fifth aunt has a scanner!! lols. i didnt bring my neoprints but i brought the class photos. and i have scanned them already x)

formal photo.
hahas charlotte is slanted.

everyone show d-shape!!
lols it reminds me of initial d.

thumbsup :)
zuoqi thumbs are down!! naughty girl!
charlotte looks like she is gonna fly off!

many ppl are not looking at the camera.
why is jun looking so sad?

victor looks blur...
last year we had victor with the 10-dollar note and now george with a 2-dollar one!

point at mdm lim!!
hahas we look squashed!

let's clap!
cephas looks like he's gonna fight...

ppl act seh!
jocelyn damn seh...
cephas looks sissy.

who is camelia trying to punch..
jochebed is torturing zuoqi.
weicheng dont bully yao lu lahs!!

ppl smile (:
alson pinching george's cheeks..
weisong with his mouth open...

we are supposed to act bu shuang!
yao lu wanted us to pout together..
in the end she said we looked like pigs.

i forgot whether we were supposed to surrender or hold hands..
yuntong grabbed victor's hand!! i bet victor hoped that was nicole..

andy is being strangled!!
jun and charlotte so cute!

we can change positions!!
but there's such a big gap.
andy is still being strangled...

this one looks better.
jochebed and zuoqi in the middle of the guys!!
grand finale photo and it looks great :) 2d rawk!

although i only ordered 14 out of the 16 class photos, but i have all 16 photos with me to let ppl order so i scanned all except the first photo cos it's the same as the second one. formal ones. btw, if any of you havent order the photo, dont have to worry cos i only need to return the order form by august :)

2005-07-16T10:40:00.000+08:00

i have finally made a decision. i choose dhp. i made the decision not only after making a whole series of consideration, but also because it seems to be a route fated for me. read on and see.

on the first day of term 3, dunman high could only give out 133 letters of invitation to dhp. i received one of the letters but i wasnt sure that i would like to stay in dunman high for 4 more years and i liked victoria jc so i used my tarot cards to help me make a choice. the ending for dhp was quite good and for vip, it was the god of death. i ignored the tarot cards and rejected the offer to dhp. i planned to apply for victoria jc. yao lu accepted dhp but wanted to apply for vip. i went to vjc's open house soon after and loved that place. and i found out that simphoni wanted to apply for vip too. this made me even more determinded to get into vjc. however, the next monday, mr. sng, our principal, announced that moe granted full dhp for dunman high. which meant that every sec 2 students from dhs would get the invitation to join dhp. in normal circumstances, i would not put dhp into consideration again but mr. sng gave a really touching, propaganda in a sense, speech that day. it seemed that dhs had everything planned out. there would be a new uniform for year 5 and 6 students, new rules and regulations, etc. and i could not bear to leave dhs too. but yao lu was not touched at all. i had also finished the essay needed to apply for vip. so i called janice to try to persuade her to apply for vip too. if she agreed, i would have just submited my application form to vjc. but janice was terribly stubborn. thus i had a talk with yao lu. she said she would go back and consult her parents. later that night she called me and said that she would go for dhp -- she thought that i wanted dhp. i was shocked cos she was actually shaken by me. but i started telling yao lu abt the nice environment in vjc. she wasnt pleased because i kept changing my mind. both of us decided to have a talk with mr. sng the next day. actually, i knew that if i was willing to talk to mr. sng the next day, it would mean that I had decided to go for dhp. thus, later in the night, i consulted guanyin. i asked if i should apply for vjc and threw the cresent-shaped stuff. the first time it was neutral and second time it was a no. i was convinced that i would be doomed if i went to vjc so i decided to go for dhp. yao lu and me still talked to mr. sng to prevent ourselves from thinking abt vjc again.

i rejected the letter of offer at first but it gave me another chance to choose. i ignored the tarot cards but even the super-accurate guanyin told me that i shouldnt apply for vjc. i wanted to get into vip and come back for st john routine trainings but my squadmates told me that it was almost impossible. just when the vip deadline was approaching, st john national competition was held and our corp shared the sadness as one which made me feel impossible to leave dhsjab. i did not like my class in the first semester but on youth day, i felt that my classmates are great ppl and i would not want to leave them. yao lu had her mind set on vip at first but considered abt dhp later. if i was sec 2 last year, i would have gone for vip but the principal changed just i became sec 2 and mr. sng is such a wonderful student-centred principal which would make anyone think twice before leaving. because of all these factors, i know i would have regretted if i went to vjc. thus, i would not hesitate anymore abt accepting dhp :))

2005-07-16T10:09:00.000+08:00

i am sorry to all those i screamed at [with the exception of chow jia yao] yesterday. i know i shouldnt have flared up at you ppl but seriously, i was very pissed off. this is why i will not accept cheryl's suggestion to write a public apology on the board after the tltm week. i feel bad for throwing my temper but i dont think i am wrong so i wont go to the extent of a public apology.

2005-07-04T16:40:00.000+08:00

have not been bloggin cos my comp broke down!! boos. anyways, friday was st johns day and youth day too. we wore full u for whole day. our drill durin flag raising was damn seh can. yupps. youth day was fun too. 2d had lotsa enthusiasm n class spirit dat day! after everythin ended, we got scoldin frm sir junyang. hais. std 2s got double scoldin cos we are the jnco squad. nvm. we shall work harder next time n be more respectful :)

oh yars, and i watched initial d on last day of june hols with shun jie after public duty! public duty was okae. i paired up with nicholas frm std 3. talked alot n slacked. intial d was nice!! cos got edison :) lols. jay chou was cute in the movie but i still lurve edison more =)

2005-06-20T12:54:00.000+08:00

went out with janice n simphoni yesterdae :) we took neoprints first den went kbox n den neoprints again (: lols. den we went window shoppin. hahas. maybe it doesnt sound fun but i can tell you dis. it was damn fun. yupps. den jan had to go off n i went to taka with sim. bought manga. dat sim buy three manga den she jus flipped thru the last chapter n decided dat she didnt like the endin. n she gave the three books to me as bdae prezzies. n the bdae treat at seoul garden dat she has been talkin abt since dunno when is off. hmph. no sincerity at all rites. but i still lurve her lots. hahas. den we went to the comics rental shop at simei. i rented 9 comics!!

yupps. den i went home n read comics. after dat xiaoshu treated us to movie -- premonition. me, ziyong, xiaohui n joanna jiejie. dis fridae sigu treatin us to movie -- ghost train. me, ziyong n xiaohui. n after the movie yesterdae, i finished readin 5 comics. hahas. i love comics n movies :)

i barely started on my homework. hais. nvm. at most get kicked out of sch lohs. it will still be a happi world for me :)

2005-06-11T15:22:00.000+08:00

missed squad pt todae. again :( cos i promised my cousin to go swimmin wiv her. n i hurt my leg when we dived into the pool. blearghx.

janice's blog is back. whee~ n i met her on thursdae when i went to watch mr n mrs smith with my cousins. took neoprintx too :) n watched star wars on wednesdae nite. prefer mr n mrs smith. gonna watch monster-in-law next. hahas. dis june holidae is a movie holidae for me x)

oh yars. i almost forgot to mention abt my dream yesterdae nite. dis is sth i mus record in my blog as memorance. i dreamt dat i was in 6k. no not 6k. it was a class with all the 6k ppl n mrs khoo. best of all, janice, yao lu n jochebed were also dere. i didnt see camelia in the dream but i am sure she was dere cos it was such a perfect dream :) in the dream, we were all chattin away happily n mrs khoo smiled lots at me. i was thankful enough for all dat already but dere was sth else. sth dat made me beam even more. he was dere in the dream. no he wasnt in the same class but he was dere playin bball when i walked out of the class. wearin pink. lols. i still cant think of anythin to explain wat was his business playin bball on the corridor but it didnt matter. wat mattered was dat i saw him. sigh. i guess the happiness i get frm seein him in my dreams are enough to prove dat i still like him. anyways, i almost cried when i woke up. when i realised dat it was all a dream.

all mighty overlords above. pls let me hav the same dream tonite. if you dont mind me for bein too greedy, may i hav the same dream every nite :)

2005-06-08T10:41:00.000+08:00

went arnd reading blogs n realised dat lotsa frenship fights n hatred are revolvin round fakeness n hypocriticy. actually doesnt everyone has a fakeness side? wat matters is how dat fakeness is used. if you see dat fren of yours bein really polite n nice to a teacher dat nobody likes, not excludin ur fren, it doesnt necessary mean dat ur fren is bein fake to curry favour wiv the teacher. does it ever occurs to you dat ur fren treats it as basic respect for teachers? yupps. but i still dont rule out the possibility dat its used to make the teacher "happy". heres another example. if theres someone really popular in class dat ur fren dun like, yet ur fren acts nice to dat someone, will you think dat ur fren is tryin to mix into the popular gang too? shldnt you put urself into ur fren's shoes? wat good does it do to anyone if ur fren shows displeasure at dat someone above-boardly? it will only make everyone else dislike ur fren n maybe even ostrasize ur fren. yupps. these comments are made based on wat i see arnd me. n maybe some i experienced myself. all in all, the most impt factor is how you urself see your fren. if ur fren do sth like wat i mentioned, wat will you think of it? if you are close buds, i am sure you wldnt even harbour any bad thoughts abt it as theres a deep trust inside ur heart. however, if you start thinkin dat ur fren hav changed, it only mean dat you do not hav enough trust n understandin of ur fren. n the frenship will not be able to last without these essential ... moral values? i hope you get wat i mean.

hmm.. n i jus realised the importance of blogs.

JANICE!! where in the world has your blog gone to?! now dat we are in diff schs n i dun see you at all, do you noe dat it feels like you hav disappeared when ur blog is gone? i dunno wats happenin to you n it feels like i hav lost my best fren :((

2005-06-07T19:11:00.000+08:00

jus changed blogskin. dis time not i design myself ones. will design one soon :)

2005-06-07T16:15:00.000+08:00

took a photo usin my phone pouch yesterdae.

kewt rites? hahas. i hav been fiddlin arnd with my phone all the time n havent started any holidae homework at all. heres the long list of homework i have gotta do:

`english book review
`mathematics worksheets
`two jian baos
`read mo biao
`cheng yu chao xie
`zi tie
`science practical book
`science workbook
`e-learnin & e-quiz for science
`geography workbook
`dnt workbook
`dnt drawings
`acc notebook [i havent copy finish]
`look for pic for art
`cme workbook
`jap worksheets & composition

hais. still dun hav the mood to start workin on dem.

2005-06-06T16:00:00.000+08:00

went to tampines mall todae with rebecca n hua xin to buy prezzies for our nice nice mentors n also a farewell prez for angeline :) met biyu there. she was so yellow. hehes. anyways, we saw the booth where our mentors bought prezzies for us. it was filled with lotsa kewt handphone accessories . i felt like grabbin everythin home lohs. okies. we went to mini toons, 77th street, ice lemon tee n so on. budden in the end bought pacifiers at kiddy palace for all of dem. hahas. n also extra bookmark for angeline. at 12 noon we went to macs for our lunch n went to library cos we were too early. we supposed to go eastpoint n give angeline her prez at 2.30 pm. yupps. after givin angeline her prez, i bought a piggie handphone pouch for my new phone :)

watched movie -- que sheng [king of mahjong] -- with my uncle, sis joanne, mom n ziyong on sat nite. it was the first time i watched midnite show. anyways, the movie rawks!! i laughed so much dat i was bouncin on the seat. hahas. i strongly recommend dat movie. even if you dunno how to play mahjong like me, you will still lurve it x)

yupps. n on sunday my mom fulfilled her promise of gettin me a flip-phone if i get first or second in class. me finally got my flip-phone:) clamshell phone to be exact. samsung one. SGH-E330C. lurve my mom lots :) next target: apple ipod mini.

2005-06-01T16:30:00.000+08:00

jus went to biqi's blog. she mentioned abt std1s bein ambitious n wantin to get into the comp team. i will be realli glad if dats true cos i guess it has been decided dat i will apply for ip. if i do get accepted, i hope dat the next batch of std2s will put in their best effort n strive hard for stjohn n not do the same thing as me. you ppl mus jiayou!!

2005-06-01T14:00:00.000+08:00

havent been bloggin cos slacked after annual leisure camp. shall now blog abt everythin i remember.

27th May Friday

its nicole's n julian's bdae!! happi happi bdae :) it was also a happi dae for me cos 2d won third in the class deco!! whoots! 2d can achieve anythin when we unite. jus like when we did so to paint the classroom =) yupps. we had spring cleanin in class later. pretty fun. after dat was pre-camp for st john alc. arranged the tables n chairs . pasted newspapers on windows. yars. dats abt all.

28th May Saturday

first dae of alc!! all i can say abt it is funfunfun. sorry hors. i cant realli remember the sequence of stuff we did. i shall try my best not to miss out on anythin. we had our cheerin competition first thin dat dae. juliet won second!! we used the ultimate cheer. it rawks loads cos it was original. some other houses also original de but the others veri copy. like sierra de. the "s for sierra" one. its the cheer fahmy thought for aquos at our sec 2 level camp lohs. n the dynamite one also aquos grp 4's cheer lohs. nvm. havin fun was the main idea. after dat it was the telematch. first part needed to memorise the paragraph to the officer. nursings one goes like dis:

i'm sexy i'm cute n popular to boot.
i'm bitchy great hair n guys all wanna stare.
i'm pretty i'm hot n i'm everythin you are not.
i'm ditzy i'm cool n i dominate the school .

ambulances one in chinese. sth abt values of life. lols. after memorisin had to put thread thru needle. den is skip 30 times. after dat hav three cups filled with water n ping pong ball on first cup. need to blow it to third cup. yupps. mus reach dere in 120 seconds. den next part ish need to poke taupok with toothpick n flick it out of bowl. after dat need to spit water to cup over a distance. last part need to burst water bomb onto urself. juliet got fifth place for telematch. second last to be exact. but still all of us had fun :) after telematch std 2s had to go to auditorium for briefin frm principal. n also to get our report book.

i met my third aunt at the auditorium n saw my report book. quite satisfied with my results already. got second in class. lost to camelia by 0.2% i heard. dats 2 marks in overall. den i realised cos they never take my jap marks into consideration. hais. i didnt do as well for maths cos of jap den they neva take jap into consideration. wasted my effort larrs. at least now i noe dat i can do well even without jap backing me up. dun hav to get ppl in class sayin dat the ppl takin third lang are doin well cos of their third lang takin over their weakest subject. blearghx.

back to the camp. when std 2s went back, they were playin somethin to do with credits. dun realli understand. den they changed it to play scissors paper stone with seniors to get their credits. juliet's std 2s - hongsheng, tiffany, huaxin n me all won against the seniors we chose!! we rawk!! i chose to play with sir weichee cos hes our house senior. den realli win n got 5 credits :) juliet 500+ credits, the most among the houses!! den we had to bid for food to make rojak usin our credits. we bid for lotslotslots of stuff n shared with other houses cos some of them veri little credits, cannot buy anythin much. juliet rawks loads. yupps. n we got second for rojak. delta won first for dat.

after lunch was water quiz ba. each house need to send one rep to sit on chair den grp mus answer question. if answer wrongly or dunno ans, a scoop of water will go down on the person on chair. i was sent up twice but didnt get wet cos first question sgt kinkeong knew answer. second one sgt eugene tyco got it correct. but still got butt wet cos the chair filled with water liaos. yars. n if answer correctly can choose a house to pour water on. the seniors team got everyone wet first becos every house sabo them. alot of houses tied for dat game cos dey choose those houses which hav least no. of ppl wet to pour water on.

den came station games. juliet used joker for dat. like last yr. in the end we realli came in first n got 12 points :) the first station games was sth to do with water too. one rep had to act out the word den the rest mus guess. cannot guess den mus be pushed into water. halfway thru game the seniors came in with some bags of yellowish water n said dat one of them was urine. but dey didnt hav time to throw it on juliet... thank god but heard dat the bags werent realli filled with urine. next station game was to throw soccer ball to burst balloons on wall. didnt do well for dat but managed to get alot of time reduced after we cheer. den had to form clock for next station. another station was to stick our body parts to each other. next one was to mix coloured water to form specific colours. we did veri fast for dat. last one was the blow plastic bags n throw frm above to let ppl below catch. we did chao well for dat. filled the pail with so many bombs dat had to stop abt 10 times to burst dem first cos not enough space.

den came dinner. after dat was k idol. sir bengyu n sir jiahao sang jiangnan by linjunjie. chao nice lorrs. den yingxiao sang jiandanai by jay. didnt sang well cos it wasnt the song he prepared for. so staff samuel tell the judges n let him sing anjing without music. after dat for grp juliet had tiffany, huaxin, rebecca n xinying sing jieshou by fishleong. juliet got first for k idol :)

after dat had night activity. dis time round was sth investigation. had to be blindfolded n touch things. lotsa squishy thingys. heard dat dere was a frog lohhs. in the end the answer was dat the person choked. blearghx. didnt like dat activity. not fun ones. anyway we had supper n went to bathe. then slept. here are my bunkmates: elizabeth, daphne frm std1, steffy, daphne frm std2, biqi, natalie, suyee.

29th May Sunday

had urban hike!! went to little india, fort canning park n raffles stamford dunno wat. quite okae jus dat it rained when we were at fort canning. i got totally soaked. we had lunch at the underpass n had to pass egg in cup usin only mouth. den had to crack egg against forehead. station master sir weilong said dat some of the eggs were raw. in the end dun hav raw ones -_-"'. nvm. den we took loads of photos posin like the advertisements. we needed 20 but in the end only took arnd 13. played alot of fun games. our house morale veri low when it rained cos we saw hotel still cheerin hard. but when we reached raffles our morale got realli high cos we met sierra n alpha dere n heard dat one of dem only at their 3rd station n it was our last station liaos. we cheered all the way although we had difficulty findin our way back. den sir weilong said dat he will buy ice cream for our dinner after we sang tong hua at the bus stop. when we got back to sch we found out dat we were 5th. second last once again. yupps. den heard dat the house with the best house spirit for sat was hotel, n they got 3 points added directly to the house system.

we bathed after dat n had dinner. it was the best dinner we ever had in stjohn lohs. the std 1s sure are lucky kaes. had soft drink, fries, fish fillet, chicken chop, etc. n they lited the canteen with candles n switched off lights. damn romantic larrs. n juliet had ice cream frm sir weilong :) juliet did dis cheer: xie xie sir weilong, da jia chi ice cream. den hotel said: ice cream zai na li? n we went back: ice cream zai zhe li. den hotel said: ice cream da jia yi qi xiang yong. we were like -_-"'. budden juliet veri nice, we said: yao chi jiu lai na. in the end all the houses chiong to our table n took some ice cream. lols. veri farni. yupps. n all the houses said thank you to us. n we went back: bu ke qi. dhsjab rawks :)

after dat was social nite performance. the last activity for camp liaos. we did some calculations n found out dat juliet was leadin n delta second. n they havent use their joker yet!! so even if we got first for social nite n they got second, delta will win alc. anyway, alot of ppl say our house performance veri nice. ours was chang e n yu tu [jade rabbit]. we came up with songs for the acts den made it realli farni. sgt kinkeong was hou yi n sgt belinda chang e. den we mixed stjohn stuff like cpr n homenursin inside. veri fun!! deltas one was snow white n 7 dwarfs. abit borin but still not bad. hotels one was spongebob. cpl amerlyn acted as patrick, veri kewt. sierra was mr kiw. i liked theirs loads. alphas one was dong hai long wang [king of eastern sea?]. bravos one was abt powerpuff gals. shunjie wore ping raffia as hair!! n he acted damn gay larrs. after the performance we danced lots. had friendship dance, chicken dance etc.

next had supper. budden std 2s called to meet mam yanqi. were told dat we had mornin pt next dae. at 5.45am. to train for jnco. we were shocked lohs. last yr std 2s dun hav kaes. all of us veri worried cos we not prepared mentally.

30th May Monday

we woke up extremely early for pt. our morale veri high but cldnt cheer loudly cos it was early in the mornin. den ran n did 4 bx - pumpings, situps, jumpin jacks n halfsquats. 30 times each. after dat sir cheehoe said dat we cld cheer as loudly as we wan so we cheered!! infront of all the other stds watchin us cos they waitin for us to finish to come for flagraisin. they were impressed by our cheerin :) n sir junyang looked happi with us too.

after dat had area cleanin. juliet in charge of level one. sir kaidick was in charge. after area cleanin went to canteen. n heard dat we got champ for social nite!! n we won the best house spirit for sunday!! whee~ plus urban hike we won the most creative photos!! yupps. juliet won champ for annual leisure camp!! like last yr!! budden overall we lost to alpha cos they won almost all the competitions. we got second. not bad larrs. n guess wat. we only lost to dem by TWO points. hais. nvm. juliet still rawks! den we took photos n we cheered n whooshed.

den we were dismissed after some talks frm sir junyang while we were given walkathon cards. went for dental appointment after dat. met lotsa 2d ppl dere. as usual, the dentist said my teeth veri clean :) hahas. me bhb.

2005-05-18T15:30:00.000+08:00

i used to think dat i hav no frens. no true frens. now i realised dat i was blinded by my stupidity. dere are lots of ppl arnd me hu care. hu are concerned. hu are true frens. hu made me happi. i am actually surrounded by treasures :))

the treasures i dug up

yao lu -- midori

the octopus hu always uses the indecisive libras as excuses when i ask her questions! you are the guai kia hu always influence me to do my work n study for tests. n also not to pon jap. i am really glad dat you are always arnd to gimme a push when i start slackin. thanks so much!! you are also the one hu lend ur ear to my troubles n neva complain abt havin to listen to my never-endin grumbles. you tried ur best to help me. although ur advice are often not of much use. i still appreciate them lots =) yupps. dats abt all. do put in ur best effort n be a good sc n guide, i am always dere when you need me (:

camelia -- cam

the smarty pants hu thinks dat she noes everythin! only your higher chi lower than us can. all the other subjects got so high marks lo. you freak. lols. i still prefer to freak you. blearghx. my first impression of you was dat you are a really wise person. but you hav proven it to be untrue so far =P but really lo, your way of speakin n dealin with things make me think dat you are a wise grown-up. thanks for offerin advice to my troubles. they are much more useful than yao lu's ones :) n you also helped me with lots of my work. but you are sometimes really blur too. ppl talkin abt when british returned to singapore you start talkin abt post-war probs or communists. hahas. yupps. n you are foreva so enthu to hear gossips. i think nobody can tell dat you are someone hu loves gossips too frm your face. also, ur strict face will freak me out sometimes. i dunno when you really angry n when not lo. when you are jus abit pissed you will show dat black face le. always make me break out in cold sweat -_-"' but i hav learnt some ways of countering them le ;)

jochebed -- bed

the girl hu always ask ppl to cheer up n goes into depression herself! you are a smart person kaes. not in the least stupid. if you were stupid you wldnt try n get hold of my notes cos only smart ppl noe dat my notes are the most useful ;) thanks for trustin me enough to tell me abt your troubles. hope dat you will cheer up n return to the old smiley bedd!! yupps. n you really veri kpo. always wan me to tell you stuff when i told you they are long stories le. hahas. dats definitely not concern kaes. its called kpo. also, you were always dere to cheer me up when i am not happi. you made me feel alot betta. you rawk!!

these are the main ppl i wanna thank for bein such gd frens n helpin me out durin the times when i was really depressed. jus wanna add, you all added loads of happiness to my life. lurve you ppl lots :) muacks!!

2005-05-18T15:00:00.000+08:00

true frens r hard-to-find treasures;
its a blessin to dose hu found dem.

true frens are ppl hu truly care;
hu will giv up their happiness;
jus to see your smilin face;
but yet will not say u are rite;
when you are not.

true frens appear to be beside u;
but they r really behind u silently;
waitin to cushion u if you ever fall.

but you will neva get to see dem;
cos dey are like the stars;
which are foreva dere to guide us;
but can only be seen at nite;
when we are in our darkest times.

if you hav found ur true fren; do cherish him or her.
if you hav not; its not becos u dun hav one;
its jus dat u hav not noticed;
dat he/she is behind you.

co-pi iirig h-tte d

`rainb0w---+ h uii w e n nn

2005-05-18T14:00:00.000+08:00

finished history n home econs exams!! thank god dhs only hav these two exams for mid-yr. cos jus the two subjects can make me faint. maybe cos take dem on the same dae ba. anyway, in the mornin dat andy kept remarkin on me wastin computer ink for typin out notes. blearghx. i see my marks more impt than computer ink can. okies, maybe its nort for the marks. its for the flip-phone i'll be gettin for good results. hehes.

the history paper was okie larrs. jus dat multipe choice abit not too sure, unlike last yr. den the definitions of terms were chao easy. budden source based n structured essay questions were abit of rush. at least it was betta than last yr. last yr history exam structured essay last part i didnt hav time to do at all. its like sayin bye-bye to 7 marks lo. cos dis yr i really put in effort to memorise. so i stoppin halfway thru source based n went to structured essay when i saw dat only had one hour left. i didnt want to waste all the stuff i memorised. den in the end completed all except a small part of structured essay question cos i didnt noe how to do. den when i finally thought of it left half a min. hais. at least its much betta than last yr.

home econs paper. quite easy too. compared to last yr. but maybe cos dis yr i put in more effort larrs. anyway, i was quite confident de lo. den at bus stop yao lu asked me the answer to this question, "There are two grps of food dat cause coronary heart disease. The first one is food high in cholesterol like egg yolk, etc. Name the other food grp n list two examples of such food". i was like mus be coronary heart disease? gosh. i missed out dat part. blearghx. i put food high in salt lo. n i know the correct answer too. shits. after i knew dat i lost some marks le den i realised i had some questions dun really know. n now i am worried abt failin the exam. :(

tmr still hav jap speech. haven even started. wonder how i did for my jap CA3. hope the teacher didnt giv out the paper yesterdae. cos i ponded lesson.

2005-05-14T09:50:00.000+08:00

ytd had a realli big 'fight' with mr gan. those in 2d noe wat happened. i shall nt elaborate. i noe i was veri rude to do dat seein dat hes a teacher. but i was realli angry with him kaes. i mean, hes not dat bad as a teacher but still. to show agreement to dat kinda behaviour is ridiculous. maybe he jus wanted to make a joke outta it. but he shld consider my feelings also rites. heard dat in the end mdm lim knew abt the changin of seats frm other teachers den started to blame mr gan for it. its nort realli his fault but he shld hav did sth abt it also. instead of doin wat he did.

me feelin alot betta nowdaes. less stressed up. i realised dat there are lotsa stuff arnd me to make me smile :) lurve all my frens arnd me hu always stand beside me no matter wat happened. thanks alot!! yupps. n when mr gan passed arnd dat piece of overall results for CA which ish the result dat will appear on the report book, i realised dat my results were nort dat bad after all. i havent been failin any tests actually. science gort second highest in class. home econs test gort highest. history ish either highest or second highest. etc. i was jus irritated dat my maths kept deprovin while alot of ppl are findin the tests too simple n gettin full marks for all of dem. i didnt fail any maths tests afterall. but i still think dat its a big waste dat i dun study for maths when its easy to score full marks. i shall work hard for maths frm now on =)

i jus printed out the application form for vip n tip. but i am still decidin whether to fill in anots. hais. hav to go study for next wed's history n home econs major exams le. byes.

2005-05-07T11:00:00.000+08:00

came back from lvl camp yesterdae. n i miss it so much already!! i even dreamt abt it kaes. the instructors were chao friendly n nice. lurve them lots =) i was in aquos, grp 1 n fahmy n crispy were our grp's instructors ^^

day 1

our section went for high elements first. dere were three activities for dat altogether but i onli went for wooden playpen cos nort enough time. it was quite okaes. had to climb up the staplets den walk on the rope in midair with onli the playpen n ropes to balance. but still veri fun, nort scary de cos gort the rope tying onto us =) in the past, i would nort dare to try the high elements n might have find excuses to "escape".. but durin the camp i realli wanted to try all of the high elements. i think it was st john which built up my courage bahs. anyways, dats why i was sho pissed off when they had to move on to other activities when it was my turn to try the wooden bridge in the air... hehes. after dat it was lunch. the food realli surprised us. we didnt expect camp food to be sho nice lohs. dere was even honeydew =) after lunch we had to pitch our tents. den it was low elements. the first one veri fun. dere was sth bouncy like a rope abt 15cm above the ground. den one person from each side had to move to the other side. dere were ropes from above to hold on to balance. den two supporters, one in front n one behind will help to push the person back if hes abt to fall but cannot hold on to dat person. dat was one of my fav activity cos dat thing realli veri bouncy. i lurve the shakin part!! the other low elements we tried were the low wall n the shaking ladder. after dat we went for dinner. had watermelon after dat. after dinner we washed up n went for night walk. before dat the instructors made the atmosphere so tense lohs. they said dat those who talked will go thru night walk alone. it was realli scary kaes. the whole journey to the night walk area was silent. den when we realli go into the walk in fours, it wasnt scary at all. veri short walk, arnd 2 mins liddat. but veri dark. den the ppl who scared us nort scary de. some of the boys said dat when they walked in, one of the teachers' hp rang. lols.

day 2

we went for raft construction after breakfast. it was quite successful. the raft worked quite well n we proved fahmy wrong =) but our shoes were filled with sand after dat. den we had lunch n amazing race. the amazing race quite borin. n it rained sho we didnt get to try river crossing. our section qutie lucky cos the river we had to cross was disgustingly dirty. n somemore dat day we gort to sleep in the chalets. section c n d had to sleep in tents dat day. durin the rain we learnt lotsa new cheers n did lots of dances. den we had dinner in the chalets n prepared for our campfire item. the campfire rawked!! our section did pretty well for the performance. den they played some touching music for our evaluation. glenpa said some realli touchin stuff n i was realli glad i was enthu throughout the entire camp n participated actively. the instructors sprayed some snow-like stuff n dere were even bubbles floatin arnd the campfire site. we cheered n danced lots. the chicken dance was realli fun =) den we went to bathe in the chalets n slept...

day 3

dere was prize presentation. miss dunman charlotte!! she was chao kewt lohs. kept jumpin arnd. lols. den we made the instructors sing while we waited for the buses to arrive. shai sang an jing n fahmy sang qing fei de yi. grp 1 kept cheerin "fahmy, ni hao shuai!" n he was so embarassed lohs. hehes. chao kewt de. den grp 1 n 2 did the dance we did for the campfire again. thank god grp 1 was the last to leave the place.. if nort i will realli cry if i miss the instructors singin lohs. when we walked to the bus, may fong was like "i wan to see mai shuai ge". den when we went up the bus, fahmy was dere waitin for us n i told may fong "ur shuai ge over dere". lols. we lurve fahmy lots. jus like my mei lurves jason. thank goodness he didnt do the tuo diao in the end dat day, if nort she will faint. hehes. argh.

i miss the camp. i miss the cheers. i miss fahmy!! we gort his email add le but he ish in thailand now sure nort online ones mahs. hais. the camp like changed my life liddat. alot of ppl said dat they missed their electronic devices n they wanna go home. but i didnt realli mind abt not havin my fav tv anymore. n i didnt look forward to goin home. it was the first time i felt dat way.

2005-04-28T19:00:00.000+08:00

everythin collapsed. again. even the black-coloured papers are goin against me. or shld i say its the thumbtacks? n why wont weicheng realise dat screamin at me doesnt help? he's nort supposed to be sittin dere anyway. i'm sure george, who was supposed to be sittin dere, will help pin the papers up instead of yellin at me. n we didnt get to do any design todae. i hate weicheng. i hate the black papers n thumbtacks. i hate my life. thanks a lot to cheryl n grace for lookin arnd for paint with me. but its no use. even the stupid paint shop closed when we got dere. i am so sorry for makin you walk arnd with me until so late yet endin up with nothin. its all cos of me. i am a jinx who brings bad luck.

todae had home econs practical. it was quite okae but i was quite tensed up accordin to camelia. thanks to her, mdm lim said our servin was best. but i sure fail the test onez. jus hope dat i dun brin bad luck to cam. i wonder if mummy will like the food i cooked.

i feel a strong urge to apply for ip to vjc nowadays. dunno why. i love dunman high yet i hate it too. wu lao shi asked me to go dhp. i told her dat i dun wan to wear the same uniform for 6 years. den she say the teachers will help us request for a new uniform. it all sounds so attractive. but i really want a change of environment. especially for the ppl arnd me. i jus realised dat i have changed so much. i hated changes in the past n i found it difficult to adapt. especially when i graduated from primary sch. now? i am like dyin to change sch. but i still misses my pri sch frens lots. n deres another factor to consider when i make a decision. big big factor. dats st john. our squad ish already the smallest le, if everyone goes for ip, wat will the squad become? n sir junyang will say dat we are givin up our squad. but i swear. if i realli decide to go for vip, it doesnt mean dat i give up the squad. the squad ish already part of me n it will always be. forever. till the moment i leave dis world.

2005-04-26T16:00:00.000+08:00

had routine trainin on fridae. took the homenursin test rite at the start. it was pretty okae. but after dat everythin went terribly wrong. we were told to change into our pt kit in 6 mins. but we exceeded the time limit n had to change back into our uniform. den exceeded again n changed into pt kit. we changed a total of 6 times. can you imagine dat. changing in n out of our full u 6 times. n we still didnt mangage to finish changing in the given time. den got pumped on the burning hot ground of the red brick area. n got screamed at by sir junyang. we were called crap n trash. instead of jokers. i dunno which is worse. anyway, we had to run with 2 bottles of 1.5 litres water each on our backs for pt. had to carry a total of 10 stretchers too. our arms would break if we were to continue any longer. alot of us cheered till our voice ran out but the instructors still said dat we didnt cheer. yupps. i wouldnt deny dat our morale dropped compared to the previous trainings. but how high could our morale get after bein called a bunch a crap n trash? but we will do betta for the next trainin since it ishh the last trainin the std 4s are havin with us.

went to tm with jan on sunday. took a neocard and some neoprintx. they were realli nice =) we went to the arcade and played a bit den she went to but the ingredients for my home econs practical on thurs. met a lot of ppl i noe on the way - wanting, kathleen, junting and elvina. so coincidental ritex. ^^

cried in sch yesterday. again. i noe i cry way too much but nobody would understand the stress i am goin thru rite now. i carnt absorb wat the teachers are sayin in class. n the teachers nowadays seriously carnt teach. especially for maths. i would way prefer mdm tay. n i also miss mr lee lots. he rawks compared to mr gan. i have got to worry abt all the tests, projects etc. without bothering abt third lang. den there's st john trainings for the upcoming intracomp too. not to mention the class deco. i didnt think dat being the chairperson would bring so much stress. i have already told mdm lim i wan to quit but she simply ignored me. i might have been able to cope with the co-operation of the class. but 2d simply wont listen to me. i noe i do have my faults too. n i am sorry for irritaing them. but if they are not happy cant they jus tell me. i cant read minds you noe. among the 5 weekdays, i dun even have 1 day to spare after sch for class deco. mon hav comp train, tues and thurs third lang, wed afternoon lessons n fri routine trainin. i realli feel like dying. i noe they prefer him to be the chairperson but its not as if i begged to be the chairperson can. the class ish not mine alone. the class deco ish for our class to look nice. 2d has not been winning any competitions nowadays n i jus wan to try my best to help us win the class deco. but i seriously wonder if we can even finish it. they are jus addin to my stress by not botherin to help.

didnt go sch todae. begged my mummy to let me have a break todae. she relented after i told her abt the stress i have been goin thru =)

2005-04-16T15:00:00.000+08:00

why are you always the one who's rite?

why carnt you jus think abt wat you have done?

why are you forevaa usin vulgar language when dere isnt a need for it?

for your frens' sake, can you jus watch your temper and reflect over what you have done before floodin your conversations with vulgarities?

i realli dun wish to lose a fren like you. but u have changed so much dat i carnt recognise you. i dun remember you as one who acts like a bitch.

2005-04-16T14:00:00.000+08:00

jus realised dat i'm nort the onli one who's realli realli stressed out...

to all my frenz who are sufferin from stress: jiayous kaes. i might nort understand wat you are goin thru. but i noe dat everythin will be solved somehow. dun ever give up worx. if you ever feel like breakin down, i will always be dere for you. last of all, lurve you guys forevaa (:

had routine trainin yesterdae. the uniform check was horrible. our ic -- zhiying -- had to pump with us for our mistakes. she pumped arnd 75 i think. her knee was almost bleeding lohx. all of us felt realli sorry,,, yupps, den it was home nursing lesson. learnt oral toilet - unconscious and dressing simple wounds. nothin much. den footdrill. learnt a new drill for opening and closing squad. quite fun. last of all was pt. our cheering was realli gd and sergeant carmen said dat if we maintain dat standard next week, we will be able to get our lance cpl rank back!!! i'm sure we can do it sho i wont bother changing the abt me part in the blog. hehes. anyway, for pt, the first set -- we had to run up the 1H stairs and when we reach 2H, run to the 2A stairs and up to 3A den to 3H until we reached the sec 4 wall-less area. and den finish 30 pumpings. all of dat in 5 mins. after dat, the seond set -- from fourth storey run down to the other end of third storey, den the other end of second storey and sho on. then reach the red brick area and did 30 crutches. mus be within 5 mins too. third set -- run up the same way to fourth storey and do 30 jumping jacks. 5 mins too. den last set -- run down the same way and do 30 half-squats. guess wat, our squad did everythin within the 5 mins time limit!!! the best part ish we ran faster and faster for the next sets and it ended up dat our worst timing was for the first set -- 4 mins 45 secs! std 2 squad rawks~ after the four sets, we did 1000 pumpings as a squad. broke our own record of 700 pumpings! std 2 squad rawks sho much!!! hehes.

after the pumpings had water break for 5 mins. den we had to divide into 3 grps and run do flutter legs then frog jumps. veri stupid... the sergeants said the last grp had to do forfeit. but in the end nobody had to do forfeit cos the last people of the three grps did everythin together. they stopped at the last part and jumped to the ending point together (: squad spirit.
lurve my squad more after each routine training :)

2005-04-02T17:30:00.001+08:00

feel so tired. jus came back from sch.

todae supposed to fall in at 7.30 am in dark-coloured tee and pe shorts for recreational dae. i left home at 5.45 am, the earliest record ever. cos i didnt sleep for the whole nite and didnt get to oversleep. you might be thinkin' dat i have been up studying the whole nite considering that i have 4 tests next week. but i wasnt. guess wat. i was designing my blogskiin. i started at 1 am and ended at 5 am. 4 hours of designing for one blogskiin! but at least i quite satisfied with the results. nort bad rite (: oh yah, as i was saying, i left home early and managed to get onto bus 2 at 5.48 am with my mom who needed to go to bedok to buy some stuff. she gort down the bus before me. abt 10 stops later, i alighted and boarded bus 30. n i dozed off happily, thinkin' dat i could hav some rest before the whole dae of fun ahead. yupps, u gort it rite. i missed the stop. the bus went all the way to the expressway can... when i woke up, i was like, where in the world am i lohx. cos the sky still veri dark mahx. it was 6.48 am at dat time. anyway, when the bus finalli came to a bus-stop, i alighted and crossed the road to take bus 30 back to fort rd. i was almost late. jus made it in time. sho much for breakin' the record for going to sch early.

okie. now to recreational dae. we were supposed to have station games from 8 am - 10 am but halfway thru they extended the time and gave us one more hour. it was sho fun kae. we had to find the stations ourselves and try to complete as many as possible within the time given. the first station juliet found was the one which mdm pearl ning was in charge of. 15 chairs were put in a straight row and newpapers+water were placed on them. dat game needed two houses. sho juliet and delta played. each house supposed to stand at opposite ends and one member from each house had to sit on the chairs, starting from the one nearest to them. ishh like need to sit and go to the next chair and on and on and on. veri fast. then when you meet the member from the other house beside you, need to play scissors paper stone. the one who wins gets to continue the journey and the other team mus quickly send another member to sit on the chair to prevent the team to get to their end. then it will be scissors paper stone again. the house with most members at the other end wins. juliet won dat =) all our shorts chao wet de. i forgot which station we went to next. i'll jus talk abt the nicer ones. gort one ishh 9 members mus go to the third storey and throw 30 water bombs down for 3 people on the second storey to catch with their container. mus catch as many as possible. one of the container even broke. hehes. but we managed to catch 26 of them. actually we caught 29 de, but becos he always throw sho softly dat it didnt go behind the chair and so those 3 he threw dat dey managed to catch were forfeited. dey already told him to throw further lohx. humph. ap kia. also have one station ishh play zong ji mi ma with another house. we played with hotel. supposed to play 7 rounds to determine winner. but juliet won 4 rounds straight in a row sho dun hav to play anymore le. lols. win sho easily. maybe cos we veri kind, when we won in the first few rounds and could add some stuff inside the punishment cup, we only added honey. sho let us win the rest of the game :) gort one station veri disgustin. have to pass things [feather duster, banana, orange, tennis ball n tooth pick] thru one sleeve to the other sleeve. means have to go inside the shirt. n somemore have to go thru everybody in the house. but we managed to do it within the time limit. had 40 seconds left over in fact ^^ den gort one station ishh to form two straight rows. den the person at the starting mus scoop up flour with the spoon in the mouth and pass it to the next person. also with the spoon in the mouth. then the last person have to pour the flour into the cup on the table. we were given 6 mins to pour as much flour as possible. juliet onli filled half a cup. but heard dat it was quite good already.

yupps, dat's abt all of the station games. after the station games, we had a game of frisbee played sth like captain ball in house level. out of 3 games, juliet only won 1. but nvm, cos we did quite well in the station games. the points will be recorded n totalled up after june leisure camp. hope dat juliet will continue to be the best house like last year. we will do our best for intra-comp and leisure camp to earn more points. juliet rawks :)

2005-04-02T16:25:00.000+08:00

to her:

for a moment i thought u were referring to me.

i thought i was the one who hurt you.

thank goodness it's nort me.

i know i have nort been talking to you much.

jus gimme some time to think it over.

to think abt who i shld trust.

to him:

i carnt believe dat you can say dat kinda stuff after what you did.

act innocent; is dere even a need for dat?

maybe you think it's farni.

but i dun think so; it's an insult.

maybe you think i am over-reacting.

but i dun care; you have gone too far.

2005-02-10T19:12:00.000+08:00

happi chinese new year to everyone! i at one of my cousin's house now... all of them playin ps 2, shoutin like hell... -_-"' anywae, i lurv chinese new year! on the eve, i went to new generation and got a necklace for sim as a bdae prez, veri ex leh... burnt a big hole in my pocket. after that went to park view, although nothin much there but still had great fun larr, coz can see all my best frenz, and finally gave jan the last year letter. still owe lucy one though. paiseh larr. then at night, we had reunion dinner and went to the dunno what place. what chun dao he pan thingy. anywae, almost all the ppl sat behind a lorry! sho squeezed and "cosy"~ it was like sho noisy kae, wif 20 ppl behind the lorry chattin at the top of our voices. reached home at around 3 am. then the next dae, which is the first dae of new year, i woke up at around 7 am. dunno why lehx, but not tired at all. can wear new clothes and eat alort mahx. and of course gamblin too. i every year lose money de. dun realli mind though. juz found out that i lost 2 hong baos... $92 in total lehx. if dun find back sure die de... cannot buy valentines prezzies le... =( oh yar, valentines dae on mondae! 4 more daes to go! gonna give my sj mortal sth realli nice on that dae. hope she dont faint... but sj members sure can save her de. hahas. hope i get my hong baos back soon...

2005-01-30T13:00:00.000+08:00

harlo~ sorri for not postin for sho long lerhz... every time i come online always forget to post... anyway, fri had st john routine trainin with the std 4s, it was realli fun for me coz i have missed quite alot of trainings lerh... last week was hari raya, then the previous week i had to go to bedok south to get my merit bursary award... holiday routine trainin i never go coz have to renew my passport... haish. durin the uniform inspection, i had to knock down 15... wadde hell lohx, the sergeant arh, we haven even gotten our "real" uniform yet, our current uniform is the corp-t + slack + boots. its onli coz my nametag half finger away from the correct place kae. other ppl onli get pumped around 5... i 15 lehx! but overall it was quite fun, and i didnt realli mind the pumpin also. hehez.

oh yah, our class start the angel-mortal thingy lerh. my stupid angel told me he was my angel. diaoz. heard that they exchanged lerh. thank goodness. have to start savin up for my mortal's prezzies and also prezzies for daph, meiyun, tong, yao lu, cam, etc. also have to write letters to lucy they all lerh. hope that can finish soon. have to also study for the never-endin tests. the chinese essay-readin competition also. kae. thats the end of the post lerh. buaiz.

2005-01-16T02:10:00.000+08:00

haish. i am supposed to finish all my homework todae but had to go to bedok south sec for the edusave merit bursary award presentation ceremony in the mornin. then when i reached my mom's office, i didnt do any homework at all... so now tryin to get some done. juz look at what time izzit now.

anywae, i met michelle at bedok south! yupps, michelle koh! i was starin out of the hall while they gave out the awards and suddenly heard the person say, "Koh Siew Hui Michelle". i was like 'eh, why so familiar name arr', then turn to the stage and saw her! after she got her award, i stared at her all the way when she went back to her seat [i was seatin a few rows behind her]. she got turn back a few times but didnt seem to recognise me so i thought she forgot abt me le... thats why i never go and sae hi to her. then when i queued up to walk up the stage, she called me!!! i was so glad she still remembers me lohx ^^ but we didnt get to chat, so sadx. she seemed quite cheerful to me so i guess shes happi in st nic. michelle, you muz jiayous kae?

oh yah. i juz realised that my little bro has grown up. i mean in terms of behaviour and character. he has become independent and doesnt depend on mom anymore when he gets caned by me. yupps, i do cane him. in fact, i am the only one who canes him. anywae, i wont type out the whole story of what happened todae, its far too long. i can onli sae that i am realli glad for him. coz he can finalli be independent and argue with me for his rights. so that he wont get bullied by me again. hahas.

i tried to forget him, ~~but i juz carnt~~. shld i be glad or sad that i didnt get to see him todae? i realli dunno.

2004-12-21T21:29:00.000+08:00

yo~ came online again... [what did i sae abt comin online arr] then i signed in to msn messenger, found out had lotsa frenster events, had message, fren request from naim and testi from tong. after that i went to change the background music, better yea? anywae, todae finalli found an article with nothin in relation to taiwan president thingy. so i cut it out for jian bao, goin to do it later. hope i can finish my homework before sch reopens, not quite possible though. btw, i think i am gonna submit my first blogskin to blogskins [?], hope that ppl will like it.

2004-12-21T02:30:00.000+08:00

yay! i finalli completed designin my second blogskin! *jumps up and down* hahas =P oh gosh, juz look at what time izzit now... i bet not more than 20 ppl in singapore are awake now... haish, the reason as to why i worked till so late for this layout is coz i realised that i have been spendin too much time online and have not even started on my homework so after tonight, i will not come online that often le. somemore my uncle not back yet [another crazy person like me] so i can use the computer.

not long ago, i went for st john sec 1 activity camp and durin the camp, i was like plannin to post veri veri long abt it to make up for the missin posts but now so late le... so here's juz some overall comments on the camp - it was fun but the seniors are realli crazy to wake us up in the middle of the nite and tell us ghost stories while they prepare for our nite walk. i oso learnt lotsa stuff from the camp.

kae, now to the new blogskin. this time i designed it with the main theme bein: lookin for true love. the background is filled with fireworks and stars which make the whole skin look like the galaxy. and the image in the middle is a fantasy-lookin girl from dunno which anime. and the background music is a midi hiu tung sent me quite long ago. i found it quite suitable and thus used it in this skin. do leave comments abt my skin in the taggie kae?

oh yah, todae oso had the 6kae gatherin... actualli i didnt wanna go then changed my mind at the last min and ended up runnin late... but luckily i was not the latest =P quite alot of ppl go, especialli the boys... all of them changed alot, especialli zheng jun, voice become so deep le!!! then worst of all is that yenson, act like dunno what... look so nerdy plus act so nerdy... go and bow to ppl... then naim still as black as ever. julian and hsiu hsien wear contact lenses [vain] dylan and tse an wear braces... hahas. that tse an still say dunno what its the trend to wear braces -_-" the girls all still the same [as nice as ever] we met at pasir ris mrt and sat bus 3 to mrs khoo's house. over there, we watched vcd and then some ppl went back. after that, the boys continued playin xbox while the girls chatted with mrs khoo. then simphoni suggested playin spin the bottle. lols, that was the best part of the whole gatherin. everyone chose truth of course then sim say dare is more fun so she chose dare when it was her turn. and guess what, nic dared her to either lick mrs khoo's dog or lick/hug/kiss a boy. sim decided to hug a boy. then she went to the room where the boys were playin and looked around to choose her target. in the end, she hugged the one sittin at the door [julian] and ran away. but too bad larr, sim older than us so not much feelin... but she abit attracted to hsiu hsien, hahas. after playin for dunno how long, we decided to go out. in the end, onli me, sim, nic, xin yi, hiu tung, naim and wei chieh went to white sands. i bought two comics and sim bought postcards. then we had dinner and went back home. pss: thank goodness i didnt miss the gatherin, abit thanks to jamie~

when i reached home, mom told me i had a letter. i was so excited and quickly tore it... it was from lucy!!! it was some sorta christmas greetin but it was hand-written and had message. shes so sweet lohx!!! then, i decided to send some christmas greetings plus messages to some six-kaerz. abt 10 ba... dun have much stamps le... the rest juz send e-greetings can le. but for lucy sure by post de =D

2004-12-13T17:10:00.000+08:00

gettin realli busi nowadaes... came back from genting on thursdae and had casualty simulation course yesterdae. todae had camp preparation and have to go for the sec 1 st john camp the dae after tmr. the course was okae... juz that the sir was too naggy, keep tellin us long stories... then todae's camp preparation was quite interestin. we learnt campcraft like knots, tent pitching, etc. then we talked to our sec 3 instructors... but we were so tired out that nobody realli wanted to talk. hahas~ the instructors veri sad coz they thought we will miss them since we didnt see them for veri long le and they wont meet us durin the camp either since they had to go for the sec 2s one. the sec 4s instructors will be takin us and i think they are nicer =D

2004-11-29T13:00:00.000+08:00

wahz~ startin this brand new dae with old quarrel. realli wonder why ppl resort to vulgarities so often. izzit coz they cant put their thoughts in any other words? kae, enough of crapz. todae have to work hard le, one month has almost passed and haven realli started on any homework yet! horrible sia... but now thinkin of watchin tv lehx... hahas, jiang1 shan1 yi4 gai3, ben3 xing4 nan2 yi2. also have to call andy and wei song to inform them abt class chalet. when monitor asked me to help, i wanted to reject but remembered that i said i will stick to my current sch so helped lohx. dunno why but i juz noe that it wont be that difficult organisin for my current class. some daes ago, i told my mom that there'll be a sec 1 class chalet on 9th dec and i asked her whether i shld go, she said, "you wanna go then go lohx, shld have some fun." i told her that it was fine with me if she didnt allow me to go coz i dont mind as long as i could go for my pri 6 class chalet... hahas~ she was realli baffled as i've always been troubled by quarrels in pri sch. and juz yesterdae, i was like starin at the comp screen in a daze, lookin dunno sad or furious, then my mom came in and when i told her abt the quarrel, she said, "juz turn off the comp screen can already mahx, dun have to bother abt this kinda trival stuff. next time juz let them do themselves, u make urself so busy then get upset urself in the end, whats the point?" so, i promised that i would juz concentrate on my studies from now on and tutor my bro as often as possible. most importantly, i will not make a mess of the house again since i will not invite ppl here anymore.

2004-11-28T19:40:00.000+08:00

finalli experienced a real friendship fight le. now then realised that those in the past were chao minor ones. haish, cant be bothered with anythin le. but at least learnt somethin from this. that is not to bother askin for gatherings again. and not to be so xtra and organise anythin again. not even go back to park view anymore. should juz stick to my current sch.

anywayz, my third aunt gave me a new job todae, juz some typin then can get $10 le... onli happi thing todae~ will work on a new blogskin startin from tmr. hope that can finish it before 1st dec, first meetin with sec 4 advisors for the st john annual trainin camp. i've been changed from grp O to grp E, dunno will be good thing or bad thing. depends on the grp advisors gd anot ba.

[tired both mentally and physically]

2004-11-26T15:00:00.000+08:00

Gettin realliii irritated le, especialli with that damn damn damn idiotic fishiee! Syikin not happi still understandable coz i didnt manage to call her to ask when she's free and not free but that stupid fishi, she go and blame me for not askin ALL six-kaerz! Wadde hell lohx?!?!?! If she think it's such an easy job, why izzit that she didnt help to contact some ppl when i told her i had trouble contactin some ppl? not to sae volunteer herself to help mrs khoo organise de thing or even ask ppl abt when they are free! She did not even care whether got gatherin or not or perhaps she cared but cant be bothered to do anythin abt it! and when i told her that mrs khoo tryin to book on 18th dec, she go and sae yenson is onli comin back on 20th dec and he wanna go for the gatherin! maybe yenson is veri veri veri important to her larr, but cant she spare a thought for others? after 20th so many ppl cannot lohx, and somemore it's near christmas when everyone wanna celebrate with their own family! For me, i'm terribly free after 20th but it's a gatherin for all 6kae ppl lehx! fine. maybe you ppl think that i'm a unreasonable person or whateva. or maybe someone who lurvs to quarrel with ppl like what someone said. i DUN care. i will not get myself involved in any organisin of gatherin again. i realli regret why did i even ask mrs khoo whether there are any gatherin for 6k anot.

[PiSsEd`_]

2004-11-24T16:35:00.000+08:00

finalli posted todae~ i've been realli busi nowadaes... i went for an "interview" for a job with sim on fri, 19th nov after visitin park view for the prize-givin ceremony... so little 6kaerz went... not even 10... haish, maybe they didnt noe that the prize-givin on that dae ba... or izzit they dont wanna go back park view anymore?

... anywaex, back to the job. u noe, when u go out and there will be some students askin u to buy charity tickets? it's sorta liddat. we will get the stuff we supposed to sell at 11am, then go wherever we want, juz that have to get back to the office by 7pm and give them the unsold stock and money. we earned 30% of what we sold. on average, ppl earned $60 per dae. we went to work on the next dae, sat. we were supposed to sell postcards for charity. 3 in one pack. 1 pack for $5. we were like wadde hell lohx... POSTCARDS lehx. somemore onli text, no pic at all!!! haish. anywayx, i was given 12 packs and sim 13. guess where did we go? we almost toured the WHOLE singapore. the office was at bugis and we first went to tiong bahru coz we met venus at the office and she told us tiong bahru the best place... anywae, we stood juz outside the mrt station to sell. i was quite enthu at first onex, but guess what. i will go up to someone and sae, "good afternoon, i'm from...", and that someone will juz walk away. SO DAMN RUDE. dont want to buy also nvm mahx, at least let me finish my sentence mahx!!! HUMPH. and somemore sim was not her usual enthu self... she dont dare to ask... so what happened? we went off, makin excuses for ourselves saying we didnt manage to sell anythin coz it was not a good place. we went to alot of places... like paya lebar, bedok, tanah merah, loyang, plaza sing, etc. in the end, i sold one postcard and sim none. sim didnt wanna be embarrassed so she bought one herself. -.- we handed in the money, thats $10 altogether and the manager gave us $3, a $2 note and $1 coin. supposed to be $1.50 each but sim said that she bought the card herself and asked me to give her the money... i bargained and took $1, givin her the $2 note. and while we were at bedok, i donated $1 to an old lady... which means that i didnt earn anythin that dae! and even wasted the transport fee!!! btw, for sat nights, we could brin home some cards to sell on sundae and return the stuff on mon, so we did that. but me and sim didnt go out to sell on sundae and by mondae, she sold nothin and i sold 2 thanks to my third uncle. and sim decided not to do that job anymore. so i also never do le, since i already have another job.

okiez, now to the other job. after my gran heard abt what happened to me when i went to work, she told everyone who visited her to gimme a job... so SwEeT +.+ my third aunt said that she will let me give out her leaflets when she finish printin them, my fifth aunt offered me $5 a dae to help brin her daughter to and fro from sch, and my eldest uncle's wife asked me to give her daughter tuition. and my gran herself said that she will give me $5 per dae//$150 per month to give my bro tuition... now i workin for my fifth aunt and have to wake up at 5.45am nowadaes coz she lives in bukit batok. juz in case u didnt noe, it's near jurong east. btw, i'm at my fifth aunt's house now. my fifth aunt is out and her daughters are nappin so i get to do whateva i like =D my fifth aunt's a realli realli nice person, i juz started work on mondae, thats two daes ago and yesterdae, she brought me out shoppin while her daughters were sleepin. she brought me to west mall and bought a baby G from city chain, a shorts from ops, etc. lotsa t-shirts too. she spent dunno how many hundreds of $$$ in juz that 2 hours. more than the $$$ she will spend on my salary for 1 month. hahas~ my fifth aunt will be goin to thailand and indonesia in mid dec so i will start on tuition lessons then. my mom sae should juz stay at home to study and do my hol hw which i haven started on yet and not go out and work... haish, but i prefer workin to studyin.

[LoNgEsT PoSt EvA]

2004-11-13T14:39:00.000+08:00

Yesterdae was a quite eventful dae. Went lookin' for jobs with Janice at my gran's office and third uncle's office. But didn't found any 'coz they had enough workers le... Sadx. Anywayx, it was quite fun larr. Runnin' around and laughin awayx. Btw, Jan was late, ON PURPOSE.

Then i went home to celebrate my gran's bdae. Almost all my relatives came, which's alot... My gran has 9 children you see... Played around and watched ren wo ao you... My cousin sae the kaiwei shuaier then the yan xing shu... -_-" She said that yan xing shu ugly... Bad taste ar she... yan xing shu shuaiest lohx, yupps, even shuaier than toro.

[~happy bdae grans]

[congrats to third uncle for havin' his company listed]

2004-11-07T13:30:00.000+08:00

*Yawnx* Came online rite after i woke up, which was at around 11.30 am, hahax, yesterdae was so tired after the st. john koto exam... If fail the exam, not onli cannot get the badge for that, but cannot earn any other badge in the future!!! Haix... i hope i dont fail but i realli dont have much confidence, alot wrong le... =(

Juz visited Jamie's bloggie... What go back pv to entertain me... She also wanna go back one de lohx. blearghx. Next time dont ask her le, everythin' also blame me... Two ppl go veri pathetic mehx? And somemore includin' her was three le lohx.

[Should be more optimistic...]

2004-11-04T18:17:00.000+08:00

Finalli added the 'bout me section todae!!! Although not quite finished yet, at least started le... hehex. Btw, you pplx noticed that there are some hearts comin' down from the top and a puff floatin' around? *beams* Veri cuteee ritex? But those stuff make the loadin' of the page slower, you all have to be patient worx. Other than that, i also added a pic in the taggie section and replaced the normal cursor with a yellow flower... i don't realli like the flower larr, but it seems suitable for the layout, the whole page seems like a scene from autumn to me =)
Oh yarr, todae Jamie finalli found a music she like and put it on her blog... And she linked to my blog with "blog benefactor" lehx! So exaggeratin' ritex... Anywaex, since her blog done le, i guess it's okae to give you pplx the add...
Here goes: http://horigible-life.blogspot.com
I think her blog not bad larx, i gave her alot of help mahx [hahax, sho thick-skinned], but the music too common le...

[YiPeE! GoiN' BaCk To ParK VieW TmR!!! CaN pLaY BbaLL AnD BaDz!]

[Fishiee, don't worri larx, your testi will come back de +.+]

[i'll help you write alot alot alot of testis tmr =)]

2004-11-02T15:00:00.000+08:00

Todae actualli veri sadx de... 'coz me not one of the 10 nominees selected to be in the st. john comp team, although not unexpected, hahax. But reached home for abt 2 mins then received call from yao lu aka midori, she told me that we will be in the same class for jap next year! Such a coincidence ritex? We are not even in the same jap class this year lohx. Then somemore come online see my tagboard so flooded become cheerful again le, hahax, so crapx ritex.

[Lookin' forward to visitin' park view & to play bball]

2004-11-01T16:09:00.000+08:00

Juz finished helpin' Jamie with her blogskin... She took hers from maystar designs, the image cannot work at all lohx, have to host it somewhere else... Anywaex, goin' back to park view in a few more daex! Also dunno why i so excited... went there 1 or 2 weeks ago onli... hahax.
Btw, will there be any gatherin' for 6K? Simphoni told me that she will be organisin', but haven't heard from her since dunno when... I wanna go chalet again lehx!!! It was soo fun last year lohx!

[6K PeEpX RaWkS~]

2004-10-30T09:59:00.000+08:00

Wahx. how time flies. already like 5 days never blog le lohx. all 'coz of that stupid robotics, supposed to be held on Tuesday and Thursday for our class but 'coz i have jap on those days have to change to Monday and Wednesday. And somemore it's held after sch, until abt 5 or 6 pm, so reach home veri late le. Then Tuesday and Thurday got jap, reach home at abt 8 pm. so no time to blog at all.
Anywayx, our long long holidae start le worx! This is the onli thing changed better compared to pri sch... hahax, now my bro's turn to go sch while i watch tv!

[Evil me`___]

2004-10-24T13:30:00.000+08:00

Todae so borin' de. Weekend nothin' to do onex. Yesterdae at least got the learnin' trail at Changi Airport, although not veri fun lahx... Somemore reach home so tired then slept for whole day, missed my fav. show 'Love Storm'! But since watch before le so nvm lahx. Hahax. Me bein' so lame... -_-"

[Off to look for somethin' to do`_]

2004-10-24T01:30:00.000+08:00

Haix. already so late le, dunno what I still doin' online. Juz finished a testimonial for Janice so long that not enough space to type, had to continue on next onex. Hope that she won't think that those are crapx. hahax.
Haix... juz now some boliao person helped me accumulate my marks for the whole year. Didn't realise that I did so badly this year. Average percentage for the whole year is worse than the one in my report book in May. Chao sadx de. I realli ought to face up to reality le... >.<
Juz realised that most of my pri sch friends are already veri occupied with their current friends le... Although miss them alotx, but still happi for them lahx.

[Hope that everythin' will go smoothly for you pplx - in studies, friendship and love relationships]

2004-10-23T07:35:00.000+08:00

At my mom's office now... then realised that the blog layout doesn't work well on other computers... -_-" Have to make some changes again... haix.
Yesterday never post 'coz had to go MOELC. so sianx, exam over le no more lessons until next week still have to go there watch movie. but quite nice lahx, that yao lu arx, keep sayin' what sad endin'... the endin' veri sweet le lohx. Juz that never show the boy and girl meet again mahx, doesn't mean they realli never meet le ritex?
Todae get back the rest of exam papers le... quite lucky lahx. Results much better than the history and english yesterdae... Happiest with maths, got 92.5!!! The rest quite a big disappoinment actualli, expected much better of higher chinese, got 78.5 onli for SA2... Lowest for SA2 is lit. 64. juz one more mark to B3! Lucky jap can replace my weakest subject... dunno jap get how much lehx... Mdm Lim said she never received the jap ppl's results lehx... still ask us izzit withdraw le...

2004-10-21T08:10:00.000+08:00

Started this blog todae 'coz bored to tearx le... Although the markin' days started on Mon, there were still the interclass games...

For interclass games, both boys [bball] and girlx [soccer] from our class managed to get into the second round on Mon 'coz the boys won 1H [30 to 3!] though they lost to 1J and the girls lost but it was a walkover [phew!]. But on Tuesday both boys and girlx lost... So sadx lohx... The 1C boys sooo tall de... not fair onex... Then the girlx played with the strongest class: 1A and managed to get a draw [0 to 0]! Then they no choice had to do the penalty kicks and still draw lohx [2 out of 3]! So they resorted to havin' the 'sudden death' to get a winner out of the two classes... [1 on 1] We lost at that part 'coz got one girl from 1A so strong, be the goalkeeper somemore represent their class to kick also... Haix... So todae our class don't have to go sch for the matches le... Blessin' in disguise ba... Girlx, don't be so sad horx... You all realli did veri well le...

[Cheer up kaex ^.^]